u/MorbidlyMacabre

July 23rd would have been my 3 year soberversary. Then I threw it all away on a couple 8balls of coke. Mix some booze and meth in there, and that was my bender. People looked up to me. I got my own apartment, my family came back, I have a great job. Self-sabotage is real, y'all.

I'm afraid of "success". I can't even call myself "successful". It freaks the fuck out of me! I checked myself in to detox, and I got moved up to residential today. I wanted to keep going on my bender for a few more days, but my PHP sent me to detox. And I'm glad they did. I have private insurance so this place is pretty swanky. I can do this. Now, time for diamond art! 🤘🏼

My new clean date is July 1st, 2026.