u/Most-End-5042

I am a female sophomore in highschool, this summer I got sa’d by one of my best friends and she was my ex, I developed severe health anxiety and normal anxiety to the point i can hardly leave my house, I’ve been cutting since I was in 5th grade and my mom knows she calls my scars gross and says she wishes I didn’t do them. I also have very bad pure- o ocd. Im saying this not to ask if I should but to humanize myself and while I am reluctant I want to stay alive for my boyfriend (our one year is today!) I have suicidal thoughts multiple times a day and I am kinda asking if sending myself away is a good idea, I can’t stay in this house much longer