I feels like not human and feels suicidal
I've been feeling suicidal lately. due to mix of some other things, but this is a big part of it i think for me now.
I genuinely don't know how to live in this world or how to carry all of this.
I grew up in a third world country where teachers would slap boys across the face. Not exaggerating. This actually happened to me and countless other boys. I'm 19 now and my whole life I've experienced this kind of treatment. I feel like my pain does not count, like my body doesn't belong to me, we get dragged to war to die like animals.
recently i saw Singapore's government introduce a law allowing teachers to hit boys as young as 9 and it triggered everything all over again.
I'm not asking anyone to fix all of this. I just want basic acknowledgement that these things happen. That's it.
cant imagine the fucking governments are doing this,
I genuinely don't know how I would raise a male child knowing what they'll face. I don't know how I'll live my own life carrying all of this.
how to cope or stop these things make me emotionally triggered ?