I'm fed up
Hi giuryls (pun intented) I'm in a bit of a pinch here
I'm tired of reddit, I need to talk to other humans yet I only get responses from trolls... When I post on an engineer sub: "wrong sub" ; when I post on neurodiverse: "wrong sub" ; I'm pretty sure it's about how I talk about my situation yet I also know I can't fit anywhere "fully"
I'm NB (amab) so queer, mixed raced (so no white nor black passing), AuDHD (not just autistic nor just ADHD) and fucking precarious...
I'm tired of searching for answers where people tell me to "stop using my identity as an excuse", "question myself first", "stop victimizing myself"... It's a system and I may live in a developed country (colonizer really) I am at a few discrimination crossroads that makes it kinda hard to find any solution.
I had to go no contact with my family because of narcissistic behavior of both my parents (my siblings not really doing better) so here's another resource thrown out the window...
Lots of solutions for AuDHD is accommodation when you're diagnosed (I'm not) but it requires money and I've been unemployed for two years... Lots of solutions when you're poor is work, get exploited and earn the right to survive, I can't because of my disabilities and dysphoria... Most common solutions when one doesn't fit in the white supremacist system is to bond with other racialized minorities but it's not really fitting since I'm too white for that most of the times and those groups tend to not really comprehend my queerness or neuroatypical brain (not all groups are like that, I only mean that it's what I found)
I believe this will be my last attempt at sharing my story on Reddit, I'm too tired for this to go on forever