mil ruined my wedding and I can't overcome this
my mil had always been really sweet to me (even calling me daughter and saying she loved me) until we started preparing for the wedding. just like many of you, my mil, who used to be kind and respectful, made my wedding day about her, her needs and wants and ended up freaking out and hitting me. before the wedding, she had acted extremely manipulative, controlling and rude. she had bought decorations, my veil, fake flowers... all without my consent. I've never wanted to get married with fake flowers, so that was our first conflict. she complained and argued that real flowers would die in 3 days, but I held my ground and insisted in having real flowers for my wedding bouquet. she accepted eventually but then the second conflict came. she again bought decorations without our consent, and when my husband asked for an explanation on why she did it again she exploded and said really hurtful things. she even said that I wanted a small wedding because I wanted to cheat on my husband and go unnoticed. she was never ok with a small wedding but pretended she was until she couldn't hold herself back. she threatened us saying she wouldn't go to the wedding anymore but went there anyways. she invited 4 people behind our back, people who I didnt even know. she slapped me in the face after the ceremony but made it look like a greeting. my fil noticed it and started saying TO ME that I should keep the peace.
we were living with my in laws but after all this we moved out. 5 months later and I can't get over it. I always cry and talk to my husband about it, reviving and revisiting the wedding day and the days prior to it. he says he will never forgive his parents and is low contact. ive been no contact since january. seriously what can I do to get over all of this? it feels like a wound that will never heal. I feel tricked.
UPDATES: Thank you all for your support! This sub has been nothing but helpful and kind! I would like to add that I'm already attending therapy sessions to deal with this trauma, and it has been helping a lot, but I do need some more time to heal and get back on my feet. I talked to my husband, told him I knew about the flowers and we navigated through my worries together. He apologized and agreed on going NC with his parents. We are planning on having a new wedding in my country this time, so I can have my family and friends around. Unfortunately this new wedding will only be possible next year since we have been struggling financially due to having to move out ASAP from his parents' house. I will answer all the comments as soon as I can! Thank you again for taking some of your time to offer me so many great perspectives on my issue and naming what happened and what I'm feeling. I'm beyond grateful!