u/Ms_Poem

Two lips, intwined..

"He could never be mine."

A kiss, so sweet..

"Maybe, she'll let me eat."

A knife was grabbed

hung dangerously in a bag.

Her back was stabbed..

And action she could never grab.

"I never loved you,

I just wanted you to leave me alone."

"All you had to do was tell me,

not fool me with a cruel tone.."

His final act,

a terrible attack.

Her final thought,

"i'll always want him back..'

Life drained from her eyes,

he realized he loved her for the first time.

Now she's gone with a love for him

that could never be drawn.

Do you ever notice when your trauma is triggered you're not your present..

But past?

And then suddenly..

Everything

makes sense.

I was lost for a while.

You came into my life, you gave me feeling.

I've said it before, I'm on repeat.

You are the only thing I'll ever truly want.

All I ever need.

Not like how a kid wants a toy.

Not like how a worker wants a day off.

Not like how a family wants a vacation.

Not like how someone will want something superficial.

I want you like how a subconscious emotionless mind wants a feeling.

I need you like the world needs the sun.

I want you like how a love story wants genuine feeling.

I need you like how organs need a home.

I want you to need me.

I needed you to want me.

I never wanted you to go..

And I'll never understand why you needed to.

Maybe even a little.

For the things I did, for the things I said.

For the things I showed, for the tears I bled.

I wish you had cared.

Maybe even a little.

For I might've been able to grow the care

into admiration.

I can't say it again,

no words will ever be enough.

No action can even come close.

Nothing can ever compare..

For the love I held for you, God

I wish you had cared..

If I mess up, its something wrong with me.

If you mess up, well, it's something wrong with me.

This new feeling, new attachment

it's at it's own degree.

The sound I cry out?

Well, it's a silent plea.

You made me have feelings, had me chasing a high

but in the end it was a game to you, we were nothing but a lie.

You'd pick me up,

you'd stand me up

just for you to walk away from me.

Ironic how you did the very thing you taught me how to do.

Our relationship didn't take one, it took two.

And the only thing left held in my dreaming

is you silent while I'm screaming.

"Loving me must be so hard and I'm so sorry."

No, no...

Loving you isn't hard.

Loving you is easy.

Relationships aren't meant to be simple or lack complexity.

Relationships aren't meant to only be complex either.

Humans in one are neither simple nor lack complexity.

So, how could you ask two humans trying their best at love for that?

It's a beautiful dance.

All the effort..

Time..

Communication..

Honesty..

Trust..

Loyalty..

That's what shows the love.

And that, my love?

Will never be 'hard.'

But love didn't kill me.

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Hope did..

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The kind of hope that begged,

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"Maybe."

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"This isn't how its gonna be forever."

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"People have it worse."

I still waited and tried..

'Till it killed me inside.

Cause you're right, I'm out of my mind.

Something that isn't there could never be mine.

I can wait if I want,

you were re written in the wrong font

in my head.

Till the end

in the end

I was never what you wanted

no matter the ways I learned to bend.

I was never what you wanted.

And I never will be.

I could tell someone in my life I've never trusted anyone more than them.

But, I would be lying..

Because, I trusted you with my heart..

And you almost killed me.

Who said it's better to love and lose?

Have never loved and lost someone like you.

While lost, they still love and never grew.

"I still love you...Too?"

I have never been mentally cracked by something before.

But..

"You like me, I know you want this."

25 letters.

8 words.

I have never been mentally cracked by something before..

But that comes pretty damn close.

Do you remember

who you were

Before

who you were

Became other people's version of

who you were..?

All the conversations.

All the moments.

All the arguments.

All the talks.

It took a while..

And it has nothing to do with a lack of empathy.

But everything to do with your lack of care

for me.

Stop explaining your pain to someone who isn't listening.

What is this poem saying

I screamed.

I talked.

I plead and pried.

Only for the same thing to happen every time.

I pulled back.

Gave you time.

Only for another problem to then arise.

"You're not the same."

"You seem off."

"Why aren't you putting in as much effort as before?"

This is getting tiring, feeling more like a chore.

But this is more than a chore to me.

More like a deep psychological need to be

a one whom is wanted not resented.

A one whom is a happy present and not just the present.

I'm fighting.

I'm trying.

Can't you see?

Are you the one blind or is it me?

Another fight, another squabble tonight..

And it's all my fault...Right..?

I don't have words for how I feel about you.

Because I don't love you like I did in the beginning.

I don't hate you, I can't hate anyone.

I don't want to step away.

But I want to turn around and run.

It's hard to let go.

I've been here before..

This feels like déjà vu.

I can't help needing to stay with you.

I know I should've stepped away from you sooner.

But I know I should just step away.

And that's all it is.

So, lie to me now.

Lie to me, please.

"I love you.."

"I want you to talk to me."

"You're enough."

Lie with a straight face.

With no remorse.

"I love you too."

"I want you."

"You're the best thing that's ever happened to me."

You make it look easy,

easy things are fun to do I suppose.

"You're nothing like my exes."

"You're pretty."

"I care for you."

Please..

I beg you.

"We love having you around."

"I trust you."

"I'll always love you.."

And what I must have written on my forehead,

tell me your pretty lies..

You can't get mad at people for not doing what you would've done..

It's just simply what they though was right.