u/Mundane-Flan4457

What exactly does mots-c do

The last few weeks I have been debating 💀 myself and today a girl I used to be very into texted me saying I’ve been on her mind and that she had a feeling and need to pray for me the last 2 days ( I finished my note the last 2 days) she said god put me on her mind and In her heart I have wholeheartedly dismissed god through normal atheistic thoughts but this is making me second guess everything anyone have any opinions

I am 18 I haven’t been in a serious relationship in 2 years ( as serious as a teenager can be) and ever since then every time I talk to a girl or get close to one I randomly am disgusted by either them or me or something but randomly all affection and everything just stops and I pull away even when she’s beautiful even if I’ve been crushing on her for a few months I still pull away but I want a relationship more then anything I see these couples experiencing what I miss I want to hold hands again and do all that and with this cycle my social skills have declined and I no longer know what to fix or what is wrong with me hoping for some answers here I don’t know if this is the right spot for this question though anyways any help is appreciated