u/Murky_Bumblebee_4338

Hiiii guys!! I made a post the other day about going to creation con and meeting Misha this weekend, which I’m SOOO excited for. But today I was looking and saw that Richard Speight Jr AKA Gabriel is doing photos and it was only $65. The trickster episodes are some of my favorite he plays the character SOOO well. And just in general I love him, so I said ahh what the heck. So now I’ll be getting a photo with him too!! I’m just sharing genuine excitement! & again if anyone has any stories of meeting them and wants to share or advice, please let me know. I know these are only few second interactions but I seriously cannot wait. & I’m so grateful to be able to go and do this. (Jared & Jensen will have to wait until 2027). I also wanna do a Mark AKA Crowley but I think I’d be eating ramen for the next month if I add that on too😂
Again, just sharing my excitement & open to hearing anyone’s experiences! Thanks guys!!

Hi guys, I’m just here to vent.. I have to get it out somewhere or I’ll go insane. This disease is so frustrating, the lows are just getting worse and worse. The pain I feel is immeasurable. It’s not just emotional it feels physical, like a constant weight in my chest and throat. Life feels dark and colorless, and the pain is always there in the background. Most days, I don’t want to get out of bed. Not because I want to give up on life, but because everything feels so heavy that even basic things feel exhausting.
I finally landed a job I’ve wanted for so long, it’s in my field and it’s good money and close to home, it checks all the boxes. I’ve only been there 5 weeks and I’ve already missed 6 days. 3 of them were excused (I had the flu) these last few have been mostly emotional/mental. I had back surgery 7 months ago and I am still semi struggling physically so I blame that but really I’m just mentally exhausted, I don’t want to get out of bed. My primary doctor is an angel and gave me a letter excusing me for yesterday and today, but I’m so scared I’m walking in tomorrow to be fired. I work in healthcare, but the team I work for literally doesn’t care, it’s either I’m there or I’m not and if I can’t be 100% then I need to go.. I want this job to work out so badly, I want to advance my career. I want to be somebody, I want to make a mark. My heart is in helping others.. but I can’t seem to help myself. The ache I feel is out of this world. And even so, I still get up. I still try. I fight every day, even when it feels like I’m running out of strength. I want to live. I don’t want to die.
I just want the pain to stop. I want to wake up everyday and go to work and be normal. I feel like I’m ruining everything around me. & feel as though I’m failing in every aspect of my life. I’m fighting so hard, I just don’t want to anymore. I guess I just needed to get that off my chest. I miss happiness, I miss smiling. If you made it this far.. I appreciate it. Here’s to hoping I still have a job tomorrow. Any encouragement is appreciated. & I’m sending positivity and love and hope to anyone else in this position. Thanks for reading.
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