Anyone more heartbroken than angry. I miss what I thought my marriage was.
I recently found out my husband of 9 years is gay. Long story, but typical - lots of hiding, confessed to being bisexual and cheating on me three years ago, but we worked really hard to get past it, found out a few months ago the cheating never stopped.
This should make me hate him, but I'm just so, so sad. I know he's not really my best friend, because no one treats their best friend this way, but it still feels like I'm losing my favorite person. We are amazing co-parents (we each have two older kids) and want to stay "family" which I know isn't going to happen overnight and maybe won't happen at all. Anyone in a similar boat?
I'm moving away temporarily, so I will have the benefit of space, but I just feel so, so lonely. I miss laughing with him more than anything. Will I have less sadness once I'm a little bit further in the process? Anyone managed to rebuilt an entirely new relationship (friendship) with their gay ex?