How to tell if I’m dissociating?
Hi, I came here because I needed advice. I’ve had a bad few months and I’m struggling to figure out whether I’ve gone into a dissociative state. I don’t know if this plays a factor into my own mental wellbeing, but I struggle with big crowds and being around people in general, and that’s when it seems to trigger most of the time. I try to avoid talking to people during work, but when I do I am so mentally drained just from having a simple conversation with them. It’s been hard to feel emotions these past few months, and especially frustrating trying to put my numbness into words. I don’t know if it’s exactly numbness, but there are very few instances where I can truly experience joy, but it depletes almost immediately after and that’s when my numbness settles in. The biggest part that I’ve noticed in myself is probably my memory being so bad. I’ve always been very good at remembering and memorizing things, but when I try to think of what I’ve been doing for the past week, it’s as if it’s locked behind my mind. I know the memories are there, but it’s like it takes effort to try and recall them. And if I do look back on stuff that I do remember, they don’t feel real. It’s kind of like a blur and I don’t know how to explain it. If someone could give me advice or any words that would be very appreciated.