u/Mysterious-Phrase689

Journey

Hi, I just wanted to vent about my journey since starting in may of 2025.

I started in may after working for this older gorgeous wealthy lady whom I worked for in home services who just somehow just made me feel like I can get more out of life and need to better myself. I was always shy and socially awkward due to pmoing since I was 11 up until 23 almost everyday and most of the time multiple times as day. I have had severe male pattern baldness since I was about 16 but it is mostly due to genetics because my uncles on my moms side are bald and my sister also has thin hair along with my younger brother balding aswell. I was always a little weird in school but still had some solid friends up until senior year where we had a fallout. I didn’t go to college just went straight to work with my father and brother as I had been working since I was 14 and never really went out to parties or college campuses as to not having many friends. Always working in peoples homes so not much social interaction with people my age. I had also smoked weed every single day for 10 years from 14-24yo, I quit about 4 months ago cold turkey and haven’t touched it since.

So I started my first streak after meeting that lady in may of 2025 and went on a 119 day streak. Was working everyday and it kept me busy, didn’t watch porn or edge not once and would instantly swipe past instagram videos when I would see lustful videos. Also had a very positive mindset as I was activity trying to manifest a better life while working towards it. I had experienced all the benefits and everything that people talk about women attraction although I don’t really talk to women or have any female friends and am still a virgin, I could sense the attraction and how they would act differently from when I was pmoing around me, getting closer without being scared or weirded out. Especially that women who had me motivated to get on this journey, the year prior I was working at her house in 2024 when I was pmoing and when I would step close to show her something she would take a literal step back like it was subconscious. I did lock eyes with her one day while talking in 2024 when I was pmoing and feel like I had made a connection because the eye contact was very long and intense between the both of us and neither would look away until I did even though I have never held eye contact with anyone like that. Fast forward to 2025 on my third week on the streak, she would get closer to me and want to talk way more, was sweating while working in the main area and she would walk in circle randomly near where I was working like she could sense or smell something that I believe was due to pheromones.

I had experienced the strong and relentless energy and would never be tired even though I would work 12 hour days. Could just also sense people’s energy and intentions and would fast almost every day up until 3-6 o’clock while working and still wouldn’t be tired and feel amazing. I had never felt closer to God, it was like Gods presence was around me all the time and I was walking the right path and it was opening up. Have many more stories about random women just getting close and being weird/curious around me, have also felt some guys get intimidated for no reason even though I was still very nice and made no intentions of being aggressive. Family life was just better and everyone was overall happier. Was way more confident and a little less socially awkward also and felt more like a man, like even just the way I walked felt like it had changed same with my posture, lost some fat due to the fasting and was in the best shape of my life 6’2 170 pounds. At a family event 2 months in all my older cousins were very surprised at how different I was and respected me more as I was always weird around them too and complemented me saying I look good. On a weird note my older cousin came to our table and my leg was sticking a little out in the isle and she had her literal p\*\*\*y on my knee while she was standing and talking to our table in a dress, but I’m sure it wasn’t intentional. Weird stuff. Stuff just felt like it was falling into place and coming my way.

Almost landed a 70k basement job. But around that time after 119 days I had started edging and pmoed. This was the day before I had to go back with a proposal after I already went to the estimate and the husband liked me and my brother, went with the proposal for the basement to this guy and his wife who was a ceo of a company. You can imagine how that went , handing papers to the ceo of some pictures my hand was nervously shaking for some reason, my brother had noticed that as well and afterward told me that was crazy for your hand to be shaking. I told him I relapsed as he knew but he doesn’t do it. Didn’t get the job and fell back into pmo for 2-3 weeks and another 2 week streak then pmo again on and off up until December when I started my current streak, the first 3 weeks I was edging but then I stopped completely and didn’t edge or watch porn for 5 months and was eating the healthiest I had in my life and meditating every day with a positive mental attitude.

I haven’t had benefits that are as noticeable or strong compared to my last streak of 119 days, they’re there for sure but not as powerful or strong due to I believe and have read in this sub Reddit that every streak is different. I was in a flatline for the first 3-4 months and eased out of it.

Last month I started edging to porn again and started going out with basically my only friend since middle school to the casino and drinking every weekend as I feel like I’m trying to make up for lost time as to not going out when I was younger. My friend knows about my journey and i have wanted him to try as he has seen how I’ve changed over time, always complements my clear skin and genuinely thinks I look way more handsome, but he has a girlfriend and likes sex so he had just started having it a little less. He had also bought some cocaine and so did I for when we would go out as I had tried it a few times about 2 years ago. When I started doing this degenerate stuff last month I have noticed a change in my mindset and energy, would stay out til 4-5am come home not be able to sleep and got to work the next day on Saturday and do the same and be up for more than 24 hours. One night when we were leaving in the elevator ther was this one group of 5 people 3 girls and 2 guys, I assume this was the single girl in the group and was staring at me very lustfully in the elevator as she was drunk, I was very drunk and was just leaning on the wall, my friend had told about it and how she looked like she was ready to get down right then and there. Her male friend has whispered in her ear to chill out my friend had told me afterwards. I have fallen back even though I haven’t ejaculated I have still been edging to porn and can sense the damage it’s doing to me even though I still feel magnetic and have a lot of energy, for some reason it feels as people like me a little more since I started edging. I have hit 185 days today and I feel like I’ve lost a lot of progress doing this. I know what I need to do and have to stop.

Want to add have also worked that the lady’s house again in February this year and again last month right before I started edging again, she said she will call again mid summer to get more work done. I feel as though she can really sense my energy and likes it even though I am still a little weird around her and don’t start too much conversation even though it’s obvious she wants to talk. I can tell she wants me to succeed in life, maybe because I am around the same age as her children and she sees how hard me and my brother work, her kids have jobs at their family corporation.

This journey has changed me for the better, I feel as though it has actually changed my face and made me a little more attractive even though my hairline is pushed back a decent amount, I feel the hair is what messes it up for me. I am still a little nervous around girls but conversations go smoother and the right words just flow right out of my mouth without me trying as if my body is doing it for me. My business has been pretty slow for the past 1 and a half years but just recently it feels like it’s starting to pick up, my brother is very motivated to get workers so we don’t have to do all the labor anymore and is actively trying too push me and himself to get bigger jobs, it’s just that I am not a extrovert like he is, he is a very slick talker and can talk with almost any type of person. But as I am older he pushes me to go out there, he’s 22. I have just recently got the real motivation to go hard at what I do even though I’ve had it during both streaks, I just now know what I need to do.

I’m 24 btw and just wanted to share my journey.

Hi, I just wanted to vent about my journey since starting in may of 2025.

I started in may after working for this older gorgeous wealthy lady whom I worked for in home services who just somehow just made me feel like I can get more out of life and need to better myself. I was always shy and socially awkward due to pmoing since I was 11 up until 23 almost everyday and most of the time multiple times as day. I have had severe male pattern baldness since I was about 16 but it is mostly due to genetics because my uncles on my moms side are bald and my sister also has thin hair along with my younger brother balding aswell. I was always a little weird in school but still had some solid friends up until senior year where we had a fallout. I didn’t go to college just went straight to work with my father and brother as I had been working since I was 14 and never really went out to parties or college campuses as to not having many friends. Always working in peoples homes so not much social interaction with people my age. I had also smoked weed every single day for 10 years from 14-24yo, I quit about 4 months ago cold turkey and haven’t touched it since.

So I started my first streak after meeting that lady in may of 2025 and went on a 119 day streak. Was working everyday and it kept me busy, didn’t watch porn or edge not once and would instantly swipe past instagram videos when I would see lustful videos. Also had a very positive mindset as I was activity trying to manifest a better life while working towards it. I had experienced all the benefits and everything that people talk about women attraction although I don’t really talk to women or have any female friends and am still a virgin, I could sense the attraction and how they would act differently from when I was pmoing around me, getting closer without being scared or weirded out. Especially that women who had me motivated to get on this journey, the year prior I was working at her house in 2024 when I was pmoing and when I would step close to show her something she would take a literal step back like it was subconscious. I did lock eyes with her one day while talking in 2024 when I was pmoing and feel like I had made a connection because the eye contact was very long and intense between the both of us and neither would look away until I did even though I have never held eye contact with anyone like that. Fast forward to 2025 on my third week on the streak, she would get closer to me and want to talk way more, was sweating while working in the main area and she would walk in circle randomly near where I was working like she could sense or smell something that I believe was due to pheromones.

I had experienced the strong and relentless energy and would never be tired even though I would work 12 hour days. Could just also sense people’s energy and intentions and would fast almost every day up until 3-6 o’clock while working and still wouldn’t be tired and feel amazing. I had never felt closer to God, it was like Gods presence was around me all the time and I was walking the right path and it was opening up. Have many more stories about random women just getting close and being weird/curious around me, have also felt some guys get intimidated for no reason even though I was still very nice and made no intentions of being aggressive. Family life was just better and everyone was overall happier. Was way more confident and a little less socially awkward also and felt more like a man, like even just the way I walked felt like it had changed same with my posture, lost some fat due to the fasting and was in the best shape of my life 6’2 170 pounds. At a family event 2 months in all my older cousins were very surprised at how different I was and respected me more as I was always weird around them too and complemented me saying I look good. On a weird note my older cousin came to our table and my leg was sticking a little out in the isle and she had her literal p***y on my knee while she was standing and talking to our table in a dress, but I’m sure it wasn’t intentional. Weird stuff. Stuff just felt like it was falling into place and coming my way.

Almost landed a 70k basement job. But around that time after 119 days I had started edging and pmoed. This was the day before I had to go back with a proposal after I already went to the estimate and the husband liked me and my brother, went with the proposal for the basement to this guy and his wife who was a ceo of a company. You can imagine how that went , handing papers to the ceo of some pictures my hand was nervously shaking for some reason, my brother had noticed that as well and afterward told me that was crazy for your hand to be shaking. I told him I relapsed as he knew but he doesn’t do it. Didn’t get the job and fell back into pmo for 2-3 weeks and another 2 week streak then pmo again on and off up until December when I started my current streak, the first 3 weeks I was edging but then I stopped completely and didn’t edge or watch porn for 5 months and was eating the healthiest I had in my life and meditating every day with a positive mental attitude.

I haven’t had benefits that are as noticeable or strong compared to my last streak of 119 days, they’re there for sure but not as powerful or strong due to I believe and have read in this sub Reddit that every streak is different. I was in a flatline for the first 3-4 months and eased out of it.

Last month I started edging to porn again and started going out with basically my only friend since middle school to the casino and drinking every weekend as I feel like I’m trying to make up for lost time as to not going out when I was younger. My friend knows about my journey and i have wanted him to try as he has seen how I’ve changed over time, always complements my clear skin and genuinely thinks I look way more handsome, but he has a girlfriend and likes sex so he had just started having it a little less. He had also bought some cocaine and so did I for when we would go out as I had tried it a few times about 2 years ago. When I started doing this degenerate stuff last month I have noticed a change in my mindset and energy, would stay out til 4-5am come home not be able to sleep and got to work the next day on Saturday and do the same and be up for more than 24 hours. One night when we were leaving in the elevator ther was this one group of 5 people 3 girls and 2 guys, I assume this was the single girl in the group and was staring at me very lustfully in the elevator as she was drunk, I was very drunk and was just leaning on the wall, my friend had told about it and how she looked like she was ready to get down right then and there. Her male friend has whispered in her ear to chill out my friend had told me afterwards. I have fallen back even though I haven’t ejaculated I have still been edging to porn and can sense the damage it’s doing to me even though I still feel magnetic and have a lot of energy, for some reason it feels as people like me a little more since I started edging. I have hit 185 days today and I feel like I’ve lost a lot of progress doing this. I know what I need to do and have to stop.

Want to add have also worked that the lady’s house again in February this year and again last month right before I started edging again, she said she will call again mid summer to get more work done. I feel as though she can really sense my energy and likes it even though I am still a little weird around her and don’t start too much conversation even though it’s obvious she wants to talk. I can tell she wants me to succeed in life, maybe because I am around the same age as her children and she sees how hard me and my brother work, her kids have jobs at their family corporation.

This journey has changed me for the better, I feel as though it has actually changed my face and made me a little more attractive even though my hairline is pushed back a decent amount, I feel the hair is what messes it up for me. I am still a little nervous around girls but conversations go smoother and the right words just flow right out of my mouth without me trying as if my body is doing it for me. My business has been pretty slow for the past 1 and a half years but just recently it feels like it’s starting to pick up, my brother is very motivated to get workers so we don’t have to do all the labor anymore and is actively trying too push me and himself to get bigger jobs, it’s just that I am not a extrovert like he is, he is a very slick talker and can talk with almost any type of person. But as I am older he pushes me to go out there, he’s 22. I have just recently got the real motivation to go hard at what I do even though I’ve had it during both streaks, I just now know what I need to do.

I’m 24 btw and just wanted to share my journey.