u/Mysterious-While-233

Are there any physical places to buy kava in spain? I am going to a place near valencia and I wanted to know

I drink kava as much as I can because I know it can help with my anxiety. I a lot of anxiety/stress/depression everyday.
I have tried heavy and heady strains, traditional/instant. But I can’t seem to hit the sweet spot. I have only hit it like a couple of times of like the 100 times I drank kava. Either I get nauseous, dizzy, more anxious, headaches, or all at once. My body temp also feels very cold.
I usually prepare my traditional with 4 cups of water and 50 grams of kava. Then I drink 1/3 cup every 15 minutes or so. When I take instant I usually take a teaspoon and see from there.
I have tried taking less each dose, spacing them out more, empty stomach, not an empty stomach, it’s just all the same. I have tried taking ginger.
Most of the time I drink kava and then I start to feel it after a few shells but not enough where my anxiety is gone (still stressed enough), then I drink more and I feel nausea anxiety dizziness and I feel so bad. Like I don’t understand I just wanna breathe😞😞😞😞

I feel so miserable. Disconnected. Alone. I keep watching nsfw content on reddit just to feel something else but it makes me sick and nauseous. And then feel guilty about it. The hornyness is just a reaction to my pain. I have kava and kratom but they are hard to make me feel good, often it makes my anxiety worse. I am in this pain for so long. This anxiety is too much🤮 this pain is too much. Depression is too much. This world is too dark. I can’t breathe😞😞😞😞 I just wanna be happy I just wanna love