I miss you
Can’t believe it’s been 4 months… 120 days since the day you decided to disappear, you sent me that last text and vanished, blocked me on everything and wouldn’t even give our relationship the end it deserved after 2.5 years. I poured my heart out in those last couple of messages and you couldn’t even find it in you to acknowledge them. Now I know I wasn’t perfect and there were times I definitely not the best boyfriend. But you know I did try so hard, but you never wanted to hear the issues I had or fix what I thought was broken, you just wanted me to always perform as the “good boyfriend” cause you thought as long as we’re going on dates then everything is good.
I want to reach out so badly but I’ve deleted your number and I don’t remember it, but really it has to be you to reach out, I can’t be the one who tries to repair what you broke especially after you ignored those last messages I sent you.
I fought so hard for our relationship and tried so hard to show you the love I have for you. But somehow it was never enough.. when all I asked for was some appreciation for what I’m doing, you met me with “if you feel that way we should break up”.
All the gifts, the planned trips, the weekend getaways. Yea sometimes I asked you to contribute a bit to the trips but I was trying to build a partnership and build those memories we’d have together forever. When we first started dating you told me you’d never really traveled and you wanted to see new places, so I made it happen. Even when you put everyone in your life before me I stuck around and fought because I did love you and I wanted things to work so badly.
It sucks that now we’re strangers with memories of better times. I wanted it to be you so badly, that I lost myself along the way. But either way, I really do hope life’s treating you well and you’re happy. I’ll always have love for you.