Spent $900 and didn't get my pet.
Hi, I don't usually post, and maybe this isn't the right subreddit for something like this, but I feel like at least some of you might understand how I'm feeling.
Four months ago, I lost my job after working there for almost 12 years (the company relocated to another country). Since then, I've been struggling to find another job, or even just some way to make a living, without much luck.
Then I was diagnosed with an illness that has required several surgeries, and honestly, they haven't exactly been successful.
I'm not going to lie, my mental health hasn't been great these past few months. And one of the only things that still brought me joy was playing MapleStory. At least in this game, I could find a little bit of the happiness that was missing from my real life.
Today, I received some news that made me feel even more depressed, and coincidentally, today was also the last day of the Frieren collab.
I'm fully aware of how greedy Nexon has been with the rates, and how ridiculously difficult it was to get anything from the event shop. But I still wanted to try. I don't know... maybe my brain was desperately looking for a little serotonin in a place where it shouldn't have been looking: MapleStory's Cash Shop.
So I rolled. And rolled. And kept rolling, hoping to get the vac pet.
I never got it.
By the time I stopped, I had spent over $900. (For context, I'm from Mexico, and $900 USD is not a small amount of money here. It's almost an average monthly salary in my country).
And honestly, I don't even know why, but I just broke down crying. Maybe it's because I haven't had any good news in months, and I just wanted to experience one little moment of happiness. Or I don't know... maybe I just lost my mind.
I know you guys aren't here to read something like this, and I'm not even looking for sympathy. I just wanted to share that today was the day MapleStory stopped being my safe place.
And the saddest part is that I did it to myself.
Sorry for the long post and sorry if something is mispelled, english is not my first language, so chat gpt helped me a bit to fix the spelling.