u/Natariar

Hi! So I haven’t really sang a lot in my childhood due to some trauma I’ve had when I was left out at a competition and after that I abandoned the whole idea but for the last 2 years I’ve been slowly coming back to it

So It’d be really nice if someone could tell me what’s wrong here - I normally sing songs like those and I absolutely HATE my voice in all ways so I’d like for someone else to say if it’s actually that bad..

Id you want you can really roast me, I really want to improve and will appreciate helpful criticism

Also I sang this in my bathroom so the sound may be odd for the good or bad

Whenever I try to sing in my choir I’m really off-pitch and can’t hold notes so I wanna know if that’s the case here too

So recently I've been pretty confident in my singing cause I've recorded myself singing some songs like I like, mostly from the rock and pop genre and I actually think I sounded great despite me hating my voice most the time. Today I went to my school choir practice which I've been attending for not long, we sang some church-like songs and I am pretty sure I was off pitch while singing them.. so after I went home I tried to sing and record myself again just to see if what I sang at choir was decent and honestly? This is the worst I've ever sounded, I don't know why but it feels like I just ruined all of my singing progress today and I have no idea why that is.

For quite some time I tried to improve on my own trying to find my voice and trying to learn how to support my breath. I always have issues when singing louder though, when I sing to myself without thinking about the volume it's fine but the second someone tells me to sing louder I just cant do it and when I try it's really bad

Today my voice sounded really breathy, off-pitch and more like strained moaning than singing but a few days ago it sounded WAY better, i dont know what happened

Really need help with acknowledging what to improve on

Can someone tell me what I'm doing wrong