Help
27 M TLDR: started watching porn when I was 8, have the worst PE of my life (cumming from making out) now as a 27 year old with a new girlfriend who is actually my dream girl.
I’ve always had problems with busting quick.
I was introduced to porn when I was like 8 so I’m pretty sure that has something to do with it.
I lost my virginity when I was 14 and last about 1 second that time- I feel like that makes sense though.
We were very sexually active and often went for may rounds until I could last longer. That was a long time ago, and I can’t be banging 4 times in a row every time.
I’ve had a few long term girlfriends since then and the only time it was never an issue was when I was on Paxil for about a year. I felt like a real man. I came off of it for a reason that I don’t really remember, but now I swear it’s worse than ever. It caused me to hide away and jerk off when I could’ve been having sex (I lived with my now ex girlfriend for a long time)
The fear of shame kept me away. I went down pretty crazy porn holes and was jerking off a ton.
I met a new girl and she’s actually the hottest girl I’ve ever met, and she’s obsessed with me. It’s awesome. The first time we made out I came from kissing her, no touching literally at all. No rubbing- no contact of any sort of our lower halves.
So there’s my issue.
I stopped watching porn a few months ago, but I can’t continue existing as a man who has everything he wants in front of him, but is too scared to even have sex with his dream girl because he doesn’t want to disappoint.
I really don’t want to go back on an SSRI as I don’t really love the idea of being reliant on anything, and I know there are other issues that come along with it.
What the fuck should I do?
I am very desperate.
Thank you in advance.