I'm committing suicide
Hi, im a 20 year old university student living in Canada who wants to commit suicide. I researched all the ways to commit suicide, but most options aren't available to me. I thought of ODing on OTC(over the counter) drugs, but they really dont do anything. Oh, and im muslim as well, so if i commit suicide i will end up in forever hell apparently. I just came across Lily Jay's daughters tiktok(Aminah) and she is so rich and pretty. Its not the only reason why i want to commit suicide, but it was the needle that broke the camels back. I just wanted a life like hers so much, but am SO far from it. My dream and goal is to become a practicing neurosurgeon in Canada, but have been really not loving life right now. I don't necessarily want to give up on my dreams, but i don't want to live. There is a fine line between the two. I have a history of ODing on prescribed drugged like sertraline, and have been to a mental hospital before. I've also been hospitalized three times during my life due to my schizophrenia and psychosis diagnosis. Anyone with advice?