r/Dying

Ada ngga sih cara buat mati tanpa rasa sakit? gw udh kemoterapi sebanyak 28 kali selama 2 thn tp kanker gua ga sembuh2. i don't wanna live the rest of my life buat pengobatan

Yk, I really tried to survive. Tried dating, when things went somewhat well, I somehow sabotaged it. Tried an online dating thing, really linked this guy, again, sabotaged it, funnyly enough I was somehow got attached to this guy.

Then again, who could handle a broken price of junk like me? I'm beyond repair, I cannot be fixed, nor do I want to. Even if I get together with someone, they'd get tired of me after a while, I tried, never worked out, so why bother trying again just to waste energy and time.

The way I'm doing this is with a combination of a combination of pills. It's working, if it doesn't work fast enough, I'll use a knife, not in the wrist like some pussy but directly in the chest. At the exact time my mom time. Funny thing, I wasn't even the fav child, was invincible till she found out I was suicidal. This way I can be buried at the same grave as my mom, not so sure she'd be happy tho 😂

I just want to end this mystery, there's nothing left other than this emptiness and hollowness, not a single positive emotion left in me.

I think the day I die, it'll be the happiest day of my life. I'll be free of every suffering and mystery I've been carrying all my life.

Hi everyone. I’m 18. I don’t speak English, so I’m using a translator; please forgive any mistakes.

This is my first post on Reddit, and you know, it’s always been my dream to write something like this before I die and to connect with people so they could hear my story.

I plan to take my own life within the next month; I’m burnt out and no longer see any point in living.

To give you some background: I was with a girl for two years, starting when I was 16; I was living a vibrant, completely new life. Without getting into all the details here, we were together for two years and broke up on April 1st. She has a new boyfriend now, but not long ago—while drunk—she kissed me and told me she loved me. Honestly, that relationship was a huge part of my life, and without it, I feel like I’ve lost myself. I can’t find the energy to work or go out like I used to. Moving to a new city has also had a major impact; I’m struggling to process anything at all. Right now, I’m living like a robot, and I’m just tired of it.

Oh, I forgot to mention that I have a heart condition and health issues in general; because I’m constantly worrying and bottling up my anxiety, I sometimes black out.

I’d like to hear your questions; if anyone is interested, I can tell the story in more detail.

I’m 15 years old and i’ve been depressed since I was 10 years old, and i’m tired of it. I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder earlier this year and thought I would get better but i’ve only started to feel worse. The only solution is to die. I’m going to take as many prescription pills I can and chase it with vodka and sleeping meds. I’m so tired, i just want everything to end.

i have been actively dying for a couple of months. body is shutting down and fading to black everyday, but hyperviligance and adrenaline bolts me back again.

i can’t find anything on reddit about this happening to anyone else.

the people i did tell that i was dying couldn’t accept it and thought i was being defeatist. i have no idea what to do. it feels like i need closure and a safe space to actually ‘go’ but i can’t get that because no one around me will facilitate.

if anyone has any thoughts i’d be grateful

Voilà, j’ai échoué, ma mort était pourtant parti en succès, j’étais morte sur ce lit d’hôpital mais les cris et les pleures de ma mère m’ont empêché de partir, j’ai décidé de rester, je me voyais là sur le couloir de la mort il faisait tout noir mais je voyais. Je ne sais pas combien de temps je devais marcher. Mais je ne voulais pas laisser ma mère dans cet état là, même si après mon chemin j’allais probablement l’oublier, je ne pouvais pas la laisser souffrir je ne sais combien d’année, moi, je souffre depuis 4 ans un supplice, alors je voulais enfin m’offrir ma mort, mais même si je partais dans la paix, entende ma mère pleurer et supplier, m’ont fait choisir de supporter et de rester.
Mon problème a toujours était de me soucier des autres et de ne penser qu’à leur petite personne, en voilà encore une grande preuve. Je ne sais pas comment seront les jours à venir car je suis toujours à l’hôpital, mais je vais devoir m’accrocher encore et encore, jusqu’au jour où j’aurais enfin les couilles de sortir de chez moi et sauter d’un immeuble.

Ce soir je meurs, du moins je l’espère.
Aimez vous avant de faire quoi que ce soit, ne perdez pas de temps avec des choses futiles, la vie est précieuse, du moins j’essaie de le croire.
Au revoir ou Adieu je ne sais pas, de toute manière si je me réveille demain à l’hôpital nous nous reverrons dans la vallée de la mort quelque mois ou plus ou moins plus tard.
La souffrance ne s’arrête pas miraculeusement lorsque vous frôlez la mort, je le sais car 2 fois je l’ai essayé et 2 fois déçue et encore là et même pire qu’avant. J’ai 17 ans, je suis une fille, j’ai rêvé d’être une artiste, dans le cinéma en tant qu’actrice, dans la musique en tant que chanteuse/ danseuse faisant de grande performance car je m’y sens bien ou sentais bien je ne sais plus. Enfin bon je tenais seulement à le dire. ❤️

Hi, im a 20 year old university student living in Canada who wants to commit suicide. I researched all the ways to commit suicide, but most options aren't available to me. I thought of ODing on OTC(over the counter) drugs, but they really dont do anything. Oh, and im muslim as well, so if i commit suicide i will end up in forever hell apparently. I just came across Lily Jay's daughters tiktok(Aminah) and she is so rich and pretty. Its not the only reason why i want to commit suicide, but it was the needle that broke the camels back. I just wanted a life like hers so much, but am SO far from it. My dream and goal is to become a practicing neurosurgeon in Canada, but have been really not loving life right now. I don't necessarily want to give up on my dreams, but i don't want to live. There is a fine line between the two. I have a history of ODing on prescribed drugged like sertraline, and have been to a mental hospital before. I've also been hospitalized three times during my life due to my schizophrenia and psychosis diagnosis. Anyone with advice?

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I’ve thought about it for so long. I admit I’m a coward. I don’t want to die but I can’t kill I’ve like this. I have enough fentanyl to kill a few horses in front of me. I wanna take it. I am going to take it. But god do I want to stay . I’m in so much pain. I guess I just wanted to have a few last chats. Socialize. Which is something I haven’t done in so long. So if anybody’s up for it, tell me about your day!

im planning on killing mself before the school year starts once again.

im tired of the lpp i wake up i get shouted at to go to school i deal with the racisim and i am force to act like a coon. my parents came to england when iw as a bout 6. englands not a bad place actually its quite fun and relaxed the people are nice th eproblem is they decided to move to the most muslim city in the country. bradford i wake up and deal with racisim and i also get fat shamed alot at school the teatchers prefer the paksitani students and even though im black i get that i shouldn have such a bad view of pakistani people since were both imgirants but fuck i cant deal with this any more i get called "niygxer" nearly every day at school i get fat shamed and i just cant do this anymore and since my neighboor hood i filled with racist pakistanis i cant go leave the house without getting called a niyger yesterday 2 kids threw alcahol at me and called me a kala. and its like im so stressed i cant deal with this stress anymore. but i do need to finish off the recordings i have before i kill my self the only reason im even writing this is because it would be nice if somebody remembered me after i die. r atleast somebody who dosnt know me. its gonna take a whil to finsih the recordings because my parents are at home and i dont want them to hear me. i might finsih the video recordings a week or 2 after school starts. so that will be me being in hell for a week. reddits probally gonna take my post down. i wanna stop experincing my self that all im good at the universe gave sentience to itself so it could experince its wonders. i will return back to the fold of nothingess. freedom the guiding hand of life. since im dying anyway watch out on the news for when a black kid living in yorkshire dies by sicide leaving a mass record of voice recording video recording and photos. just showing you why i did it

I'm 26(f) dying of multiple organ failure. I'm a completely different person now i feel like, i don't like myself.

How do let go? I'm mourning the time I won't get to spend with all the people I love.

How do I cope with dying with so many regrets? I wish there was anything I could do but I have nothing and am nothing now. I can't even bring myself to end it bc I don't want to die.

I want to get better so badly and to spend time with my loved ones again. I'm pretty sure they all hate me and I understand bc this version of me is pathetic and leechy and mean.

I get i have a heart, kidneys, liver and pancreas failing, among other things but idk how I got this bad and I want so desperately to get Medicaid or disability rn so I can go on anti-phycotics or anxiety pills or something to stop it all but I don't even think my liver could handle it.

How do I let go? I know there nothing I can do to mend my mistakes or make things better, what's done can't be undone. I can't apologize enough. There's nothing I can do? I want to repay them at the very least for how much they've done for me but I have nothing. How do I die with that?

Any suggestions for free therapy places or reduced? I'd really love to talk to a professional. I'm not religious but I always wished I was more, I have tried a few. Anyone else relate or can share some advice or anything would be appreciated greatly. Thank you🫶

I know this is completely hypothetical, but do you ever think about how you might die?.

For some reason, I feel like mine would either be a heart attack or drowning.

Especially drowning, because whenever I’m at a beach, waterfall, or anywhere involving water, I have a tendency to ignore people telling me to be careful and go further into dangerous areas.So I feel like one day my swimming skills might not be enough to compensate for my stupid decisions.

So what about you? What do you think will probably take you out?

Can't wait for peace; just wish it wasn't so scary

I don't think I will get any answer which will comfort,or any answer at all but I still wanna say I am so afraid and my fear might seem pretty stupid...Death,I am afraid to be alive like being concious and afraid to die too...I don't want to lose anyone,I just want to stay with everyone forever...I am so afraid,and helpless...

Final and last post:

Wednesday is my final day here. I will be 38 this Friday. I can no longer see a future anymore.

I just wanted to reach out, one last time before Wednesday. Im really sorry for anybody else who cant see a way out either. Life is gone unbearable for me.

Life is getting harder. I dont see a future anymore.

I dont want any messages saying it gets better, or wait another day. Some people unfortunately, cant see a way out. Myself dont have the coping skills, to cope with life anymore.

The helplines, mental health support is useless in my own country.

i just wish I had the courage to end it years ago.

Goodbye 🩷

Idk,ive tried various ways of killing my self…idk if i can hold on anymore…these might be my last words,but please remember that you are the one who is choosing the way of life you want to live and with whom you want…i am engaged to an amazing man …but i cant do it anymore…everything is against us…the universe itself is against me…so why should i give it a chance anymore…there is no reason for me to live anymore.i am not being dramatic.maybe these 22 years are enough for me..see you on the other side ..maybe..