im going to die
im planning on killing mself before the school year starts once again.
im tired of the lpp i wake up i get shouted at to go to school i deal with the racisim and i am force to act like a coon. my parents came to england when iw as a bout 6. englands not a bad place actually its quite fun and relaxed the people are nice th eproblem is they decided to move to the most muslim city in the country. bradford i wake up and deal with racisim and i also get fat shamed alot at school the teatchers prefer the paksitani students and even though im black i get that i shouldn have such a bad view of pakistani people since were both imgirants but fuck i cant deal with this any more i get called "niygxer" nearly every day at school i get fat shamed and i just cant do this anymore and since my neighboor hood i filled with racist pakistanis i cant go leave the house without getting called a niyger yesterday 2 kids threw alcahol at me and called me a kala. and its like im so stressed i cant deal with this stress anymore. but i do need to finish off the recordings i have before i kill my self the only reason im even writing this is because it would be nice if somebody remembered me after i die. r atleast somebody who dosnt know me. its gonna take a whil to finsih the recordings because my parents are at home and i dont want them to hear me. i might finsih the video recordings a week or 2 after school starts. so that will be me being in hell for a week. reddits probally gonna take my post down. i wanna stop experincing my self that all im good at the universe gave sentience to itself so it could experince its wonders. i will return back to the fold of nothingess. freedom the guiding hand of life. since im dying anyway watch out on the news for when a black kid living in yorkshire dies by sicide leaving a mass record of voice recording video recording and photos. just showing you why i did it