Lost an amazing wife and can’t accept it
I posted here about 8 months ago about my wife asking for a divorce. The divorce was amicable, and after that we had no contact for about 8 months. During that time, I thought I was healing and slowly getting over her.
About a month ago, she reached out and said she still likes me and wants to stay in contact. Since then, we’ve been talking occasionally about random things, and all those emotions came rushing back.
She really was an amazing wife, and I still can’t accept that I lost her. The thought of losing someone like her consumes me every day. Deep down, I still have hope because of these small conversations we’re having, but I don’t know if I’m just being delusional.
I’ve been hooking up with other women and drinking a lot, trying to distract myself, but at the end of the day, I just feel empty.
Any advice is welcome.