I’m hoping someone more familiar with GBI can help me out. I took this initiation recently, after many years of preparation, but the link to the sadhana wasn’t immediately available (which I ended up not noticing until after the full thing had concluded).
I wrote this to my guru some years ago, in the middle of my first attempt at ngöndro. I’m having difficulty returning from retreat, and revisiting it brought back some tender feelings, so I thought it might be nice to share….
Omniscient Lord Vajrabhairava,
Quintessence of the perfect Guru’s thoughts and activities,
Look upon this reckless one,
Sickened through dining heedlessly on the three poisons,
And fill him with the manna of your boundless wisdom.
This animal,
Caught completely in the snare of his own beliefs and emotions,
Pretending to hold your instructions dear
Without knowing their actual meaning,
Only seeks refuge with you, his kindest friend.
When, as now, your glorious face is turned away,
And no empty words will bring you close,
May this serve as a heartfelt expression of truth
Continually blessing the mind of the faithless
To make unavoidable the fulfillment of your wishes.