what if i dont have ADHD anymore??
I was tested for ADHD in middle school and got a diagnosis, but I don't remember the specifics. Then I was tested around two years ago by my therapist at the time and got the diagnosis "severe ADHD combined type" which made sense to me and i felt very validated by that label. my ADHD makes everything in my life super difficult. taxes, work, remembering appointments, scheduling, cooking, cleaning, the works.
recently i just saw a new psychiatrist and she said that the self report kind of test is inaccurate and a lot of people test positive for ADHD from that. she said ADHD is overdiagnosed/misdiagnosed a lot. that made sense to me i guess. so she wants me to take the CNS test (i think that was the name?) she said it was a test to see what my deficits really are and whether or not i actually have ADHD.
i am TERRIFIED now. I thought I had severe ADHD my whole life, and what if now, because of this test, I dont anymore?? even if i was diagnosed with ADHD that wasnt severe id feel odd about it. it just feels like i wouldve been lying to myself and everyone around me. Like i was claiming my "severe ADHD" made things hard, but what if it was just me the whole time? having severe ADHD has been a core piece in my identity for my whole life, and if i dont have that anymore.. i just wouldnt feel like myself :(
has anyone else taken a CNS test? whats it like? do psychiatrists usually administer this? am i worried over nothing? should i just accept whatever new diagnosis i get? what do i do?? 😭