Is an impossible reality a trap of parallel universes or are you just a loser?
I have a rather strange question, the answer to which I have been looking for for many years, gradually going crazy from the lack of answer and understanding. I feel like a crazy scientist, in search of the truth
I'm sure that here, on Reddit, among the foreign audience (I'm from Ukraine) there are those who also feel the same as me. Therefore, I apologize in advance for possible mistakes, I write in English as best I can, I hope there will be no problems with understanding.
So, what's the point - why when I imagine something in my head - it never happens in reality? Never. I just have to imagine how I, for example, will create a situation in my head - the probability that something like this will happen in reality is zero. Absolutely. A date with a guy where we have our first kiss - does not happen, the successful completion of some problem - too, any visualization that is so advised everywhere to fulfill dreams in my case means that it will definitely not happen. There is also a positive side of this problem - if you imagine something bad, it won't happen either. For example, I'm going to work and I'm worried about how the meeting will go, it's enough to imagine that I'm being scolded or shamed there - and that's it, so it won't happen:))) But I can't think about the bad all the time... I'm a kind, soft and gentle person, I want to live in positivity and universal support, but unfortunately nothing good comes out of my head, and I'm just not able to think about the bad. How to fix it? Why is that? Why do others fulfill visualization and fantasies and attract, and I'm cursed? As if I'm invisible to these methods... What to do about it? Tired of not finding answers, already one step away from apathy and depression...