I can't decide on if I want an abortion
I am 21F and found out I was pregnant with twins about a month and a half ago and the decision has only gotten harder. I had broken up with the father right before finding out I was pregnant and ever since he has found out, he has been in terrible condition, consistently begging for an abortion as he comes from a strict cultural upbringing and is convinced his life will be ruined and fall apart. As for me, I have a very supportive family and parents who are more than willing to provide for me and help me if I choose to keep the pregnancy. I am about 9w now and I initially said I would abort if I was ever put in this position but of course, you never think you would be put in this position. I have felt very hesitant from the moment I found out and even more so after finding out it's twins. I have never wanted children and I have always said I want to live out my 20s. I still have one more year of school until I graduate and I saw such a big future with endless possibilities before all of this. I am terrified about all the changes to come especially physical changes to my body since I am obsessed with fitness and staying in shape as silly as it sounds but a twin pregnancy would obviously change my body drastically. The main reason I am so torn on what to do is because I fear the curiosity may get to me if I abort and the surgical procedure which I am leaning to get, is also a scary thought too, but I just want my life to be back to normal and so I don't know why I am so torn on just booking the appointment. Any advice would be so helpful or even shared stories with a similar experience.