u/New-Material-7777

what is the point in living with hsv2 you should wear a condom with sex which takes away sensation and intimacy, your 24/7 at potential risk as you never know when your shedding, only 13% of the world have it so why would people pick you when theres 87% hsv free people, you could kill your child with it, it can cause parkinsons, it strips you of your personality, ruins your mental health, like what is the point? Why is there no cure? Why is there no help?

All I do is dream about this virus all I want to do is sleep all day and stay in bed so much, the std clinic lied to me about disclosure, not needing condoms and stating no outbreak no problem. I went to the doctors and said I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if I passed this on to somebody, they gave me antivirals and didn’t mention asymptomatic shedding nor the fact they just help and don’t fully protect. This was last September and I was fine and happy and living my life after all that information and didn’t even look into it anymore or really even think about it. fast forward to may after carrying on as normal I had sex and woke up the next day with an outbreak. This girl has been living with me and we’ve had lots of sex I obviously held back all week waiting for it to clear up. But in doing so I had no choice to tell her and say we had to wait. Iv then non stop googled every day since then, read every website possible, every Reddit group. Its consumed my life and made me feel disgusting and ashamed and so let down by the doctors and clinic that iv been putting people in danger this whole time. Since then iv had non stop burning in my anal area, lower back pain constant fatigue and random spots on my penis head that don’t look like outbreaks, (iv had maybe 6/7 small outbreaks just near or on my penis in the last 8 months) but I haven’t felt any of theese other symptoms the whole time up intill this recent outbreak in may. It’s literally made me suicidal and feeling like I can’t live anymore and that my life is over. I can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel and it’s stripped me of my happiness and personality.