Venting: i have a loop ileo and a fistulized old colostomy wound leaking what looks and smells like shit
UGH. Today foul smelling brown stuff came from my old colostomy wound. A different shade of brown than what is coming out of my ileostomy. Also, way, way smellier. I paged my surgeon and she thinks I somehow developed a fistula from my off-line colon- and what is coming out is a) old stool or b) smelly mucus or c) ileostomy output that went down the loop into my colon and then is coming through this fistula.
I feel really gross. I feel really fucked up. I feel really desperate. I am really sad to have a further complication.
The ileostomy is one thing; still having a big open wound two months after a fistula repair is another ( my colostomy got reversed but then my colon fistulized with my old wound 3 weeks later) but having what looks and smells like shit coming out of my wound is a whole other thing.
Fuck fuck fuck my life feels so out of control. Has anyone else been in this boat? Something similar? I feel so so alone.