It was my fault
I had to let my baby go Monday. She was 19 and diagnosed with Stage IV in February. For the most part I did everything her vet recommended except for one thing. At the very end of March her rechecked bloodwork came back showing her hematocrit had dropped from mid 30’s to 25 percent and the vet suggested Varenzin to treat the anemia but said results have been mixed. I filled the prescription but never gave it to her. She was already needing multiple rounds of lactulose for constipation and I just didn’t want to force her to open her mouth even more for 28 days straight if the medication didn’t have a great chance of working. Plus she was doing pretty well at that time, still pretty active and a good appetite. About two weeks ago I noticed her appetite dwindling. Last week she was barely eating so we checked bloodwork again and her CR and bun had jumped pretty high (7.2 and 95). Vet did not mention anything about anemia though. We tried two more days of increased fluids, cerenia, and mirataz but she didn’t respond to any of it and stopped eating alltogether. I am dealing with intense guilt over not trying the anemia medication. I should have just tried it, then at least I’d know. But I was trying to do the right thing by her….she hated having her jaw pried open….I just wanted her to be happy and enjoy her last days. I didn’t realize anemia can be so serious and should have done my own reading on it. The vet certainly didn’t make it seem like anything critical or explain the consequences of it. I should have been doing my own research on everything pertaining to my baby. I failed her and feel like I caused her decline.