I think i was sexually abused but not sure if i have categorized it correctly
Okay everybody, this is my first time posting on this platform and i am extremely nervous but i want to get some opinions. I don’t remember most of my childhood especially things like age and when things happened in the timeline of my life if that makes sense. i do however remember this very vividly i am just not sure on ages. i think i was between 8-10 which would make my cousin 13-15, now me and her are both females i am straight and i dont know about her. anyways she used to come over on mondays after school, i cant remember why monday i just remembe it being monday. well my mom would sit on the couch in the living room and me and my cousin would play in the “play room” which was on the other side of the wall from the living room. well i remember one day she wanted us to play “wedding” where i was the bride and she was the groom and she would kiss me. well i remember telling her i didn’t know how to kiss because I WAS A CHILD. Anyways, i remember her teaching me how to kiss and eventually making me make out with her. Well i had completely forgot about this until i was cleaning out that playroom and found a old white play clutch we had that has a big white flower on the front. it triggered that memory because i had to hold the white purse when i walked down the fake aisle. when i found it i asked my sister who is two years younger than me if she remembered it, she did and said she was the flower girl. anyways we have completely cut all ties with her for other reasons but when i told my mom she didnt believe me and told me since she had opened up with me that something similar had happened to her i had projected it and made up on accident that it had happened to me so we would trauma bond over it. Okay that’s all i have i want advice!!!l