u/Niji69Rainbow

I just had a gun to my head. A 5 slot revolver, didn't know which slot had a bullet in it because I spun it like I was playing fucking Russian roulette. I held it up to my head, but instead of cocking it and pulling the trigger, instead, I called 988. After hyperventilating and info dumping and wasting that poor girl's time, I hung up and walked home. Is that an attempt? Did I survive a suicide attempt or am I just a fucking coward?

I mainly did the Russian roulette thing to try to follow through. Figured if 5 trys at 20% chance didn't work id add more bullets. Thought that 80% of not dying would make me more likely to pull the trigger since im a fucking coward. Couldn't even cock the damn thing once.