u/Nika-sea

We always had one group of friends, we used to have the same hobbies, the same school, class, sports team etc.
When we were 20, my brother moved abroad. Since then, we usually see each other 1-2 weeks per year. AMA about childhood experience of having a twin or any other questions.

Margarita Mamun traveled to Bangladesh, where she visited the village where her father was born. During the trip, she had an interview with sports journalist Viktor Kravchenko.

V: What are you dreaming of?

M: You may have to cut out this answer. I want the war to end as soon as possible. I really dream about it.

V: Why did you say that I would have to cut this out of the interview?

M: Because in our country it is not seen as a horror. As if everything is going on as usual, as if everything is as it should be. It's like everything is normal.

V: Do you want me to cut out this answer?

M: No, I don't want to. But I know you're worried about my safety. I really appreciate it. I live in Moscow. And my family lives there.

V: How do you feel when you're afraid to tell what you're dreaming of?

M: I feel terrible because I can't openly talk about basic human desires. It seems to me that there may be consequences. I always want to say that I dream about freedom (for myself and society), freedom of speech. I dream of the war to end and people to not being killed. I want to stop seeing such horrible news every day.

V: Do you feel safe in Russia?

M: No, I feel insecure. I don't feel safe, because it seems to me that government agencies like the police and the court are not on my side. When I drive past traffic police, I expect trouble. I'm afraid that I'll have to defend myself, everything inside me is shrinking. I expect that they won't like the music from my car or they will ask to check my phone. They don't have the right to do it, but they can do it. This feeling when you haven't done anything, but it's like you're already guilty… I hate this feeling, but it stays with me every day.