Am I on the aplatonic spectrum?
（I used AI to help with the translation, and sorry for any language mistakes.）
I already identify as aro and I'm also on the ace-spec. I have no desire for romantic relationships. And now I am confused about the concept of aplatonic.
I have friends, but I can’t understand what platonic attraction is. I do feel drawn to someone based on their certain personality traits, actions, or simple aesthetic attraction. That interest makes me want to interact with them more, which increases the chance of friendship developing. But it doesn't feel like a desire to form relationships with them.
To me, friendship is something that happens naturally through shared time, mutual understanding, and common memories. I don't experience a specific kind of attraction that makes me want to be friends with someone. I have a few people I consider close friends. Their importance comes from trust, shared interests, and what we've been through together. But if you asked me what traits in them attracted me to friendship, I'd struggle to answer. When friends leave or move away, I don't feel sad or miss them intensely. I used to describe it as "having no real sense of separation." I do miss the times we had together, but if the relationship itself isn't broken, separation doesn't seem to trigger negative emotions.
That said, friends are still very important to me. I have a high need for social connection. I have a strong need for deep bonds with others, and I can't stand the loneliness of feeling misunderstood or unrecognized. I've also been in one intimate relationship. In that relationship, I did experience separation anxiety and longing – feelings I don't have with other friends. It felt somewhat like sensual attraction, based on a deep emotional attachment.
I feel a bit contradictory and really confused.