u/No-Atmosphere654321

The land and the people..

Im not trying to seem special or different I just want to understand why in my particular case i had to be here, why i came? was i ready? i don't seem to fit in or understand how things work after 26 years of living here. Feeling like a foreigner everyday.

And i don't wish to fit in, because i think id be abandoning myself if i do. but i just wonder why? Often i thought i fell here by mistake.

And the thought of it makes me angry. Ever since i was a kid id feel like my soul is partly living in another place in the world.

I also feel very stuck to move away from it at this point.