u/No-Bag8949

something rings a bell? the title fuck yea, we are soooo back cus im lowk in the most unswaggest era of my life rn

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first of all addressing the elephant in the room, neet got cancelled, okay wtaf? my luck is in hell bradar.

and i still have no idea on what to do or what to pursue, and im very much confused, okay i wouldn't say confused, i would say i feel so lifeless and i have no energy to speak up, but at the same time im not doing anything productive or going out, cus i did a mistake of doing home prep and im stuck in my own home, my parents are not letting me to go out to my old frnds cus i have to study and prepare for my entrance exams, god forbid let me live i guess and i have no idea what to do, and i have zero interest in anything at all, i dont know what im doing or what i wanna do, okay fuck it, i really dont have any clarity on what is even happening, i feel so stuck and feel so out of place, and i feel so sophisticated and congested here, im at this point i dont even wanna achieve anything at all, i js wanna live without this constant spiral feeling, my parents are very nosy and controlling, cmon im almost 21 now, do they still need to monitor my every move and correct me? cmon its high time, they should let me mind my own business, im battling so much within myself, i feel so congested in my own skin, i js wanna runaway very far from these people and place and never return back, im so tired of pretending to be strong and unbothered, fucking hell im losing my shit visibly but there is part of me feeling so numb, i mean am i even eligible to be at chill? i feel no remorse regarding my procrastination whatsoever, what am i feeling? why am i feeling? what do i do? what should i do? yea i lost my swag, im here asking help, and holding onto my drained life by a fine thread hoping to find security and freedom or consolation atleast, well thats it i guess, byebye :3

help me lol, i feel so ashamed to ask for help cus i feel im not eligible to feel mental dread cus im privileged enough and i have a roof on my head and idk lol maybe help me or talk ig

appreciate it blehhhh :333

hi so,

why dont i see love is love in telugu? why are still closeted in big 26? why are we that scared? what are we scared of? are we homophobic or backward? why there is no proper education about exploring your sexuality openly like it is as in north? a standup comic, madhur virli talks about exploring sexuality in one of his open mics (ref : fifty shades of gay on youtube), why there are no one talking about these norms and normalising them as they should be in telugu? or shouldn't they be normalised? what are people scared of? and as a bisexual woman (only dated north women cus they are woke comparatively) i feel so underseen, we need education on this too, LGBTQ+ is not a curse yo, they are not devils yo, we all humans and we all breathe the same air, we should learn about them too, what do you say?

#loveislove

ps : if you dont have maturity to accept this, move on bruh.

okay so hi, im 20F and i will be 21 in 5 months, and i still dont have my own mobile phone, or bank account or drivers license or pan card or voter id or wtv and im feeling fomo idk why

its not like my parents cant afford or sum, my brother(19) is studying btech in tier 1 govt clg and he has had phone since he was 17 and im privileged and im grateful for everything but im feeling fomo? am i an ungrateful brat? idk bruh

i mean okay reasonable cus im not in any uni yet, bcs im in my damn 3rd drop year for this damn neet

i dont even know what is happening anymore, all this started bcs i was that "academically gifted child" or wtv idk why people thought that way bcs i was that one kid who does absolute bs silently and got away with it bcs i looked innocent, okay wtv so i got 93% in 10th and 91% in 12th and my parents thought im some human computer goat in studies, and compelled me to pursue mbbs as usual, and in my 1st neet attempt i got 70% below par low than cutoff, in my 2nd attempt i got sick physically and mentally and i was diagnosed with anxiety and ibs and i spent half of my prep time in hospitals yet i still attempted neet and got like idek 60% ig? my parents said "take one more drop, cus yk you were ill na, this time you will crack it forsure" i took drop again and i used to get like 600-650 marks in mocks and everything was going great until i met with a life changing accident just 5 months before neet, my pelvis bone got fractured and was strictly bed ridden for 5 months, i did not study cus i was hospitalized and living with saline bottles and cannulas, i attempted my 3rd neet with pain and idk how i survived those 3 hours sitting tbh, after coming back from exam centre i couldnt move my legs for 2 weeks, i was THAT much in pain, but as expected i got 87% and nah i did not make it into any college, and weeks passed, i waited till last counselling round, nothing happened and quarter part of new academic year already started and i gained heck ton of weight due to my accident, so i told my parents that i wanna figure out shi and lose weight and hit gym so i will take this year drop too, atp im used to drop years but im not used to home prep, i mean all those 2 years i was going to some offline coachings which was engaging and im that person who can make frnds easily, and this year i was at home "preparing" for neet or sum but nah im not, and i have zero frnds now and no social life, im always in my room, either scrolling or sleeping, its been months since i stepped out, i hate this, i hate being here, idek what im feeling anymore, idek whats happening anymore, but im not tensed about anything at all, i feel nothing tbh, i feel so unbothered to the point where it starting to concern me like, why am i not feeling anything? is something wrong with me? idk dawg, i havent figured any shit out but i applied for entrance tests so, lets see i guess? and funfact is that i only went to gym for like 2 months i guess so, no body too, idk what am i doing? do yall have any idea???

ps: im posting this from my laptop cus obv lol

ps of ps: im not saying i want a phone and blah blah shi but im venting out what actually has been happening to me cus my parents are always busy and im almost invisible to them or wtv and idk dawg its chill ig?

"where is your sword?"

- uhh idk?

"WDYM IDK???"

- hehe yea idk

ps of the picture: legit idk

kikikikiki peace.