how to gain size with an eating disorder ?
i done strength training a lot when i was 14-15 , but became anorexic at 16 and had to stop because of malnutrition . was 205 then , i’m 118 now at 5’10 as a 19 yr old man (if u consider that age a man) .
very insecure abt how scrawny i’ve gotten , wanna start strength training again but i’m lucky to eat 1000 calories a day . my anorexia isn’t active anymore or anything , i just also developed some sort of throat problem that makes it hard to swallow anything , and almost impossible to eat any meats . and in case anyone is to ask , i don’t know what it is , they ran tests when i was 16 and couldn’t figure anything out but i do intend to try and find help for it whenever i get insurance again .
so basically i’m almost always in a calorie deficit and it’s very hard to get basically any protein at all , as well as being difficult to hydrate . idk if there’s any studies with situations like these or not , but any help or advice is very very appreciated .
and for more context just in case , i can’t go to a gym but i own dumbbells , an exercise bike , and a punching bag (even tho cardio is definitely a no go for me right now) and budget is very tight for expensive food options or supplements , and protein powder genuinely makes me so sick no matter what i do with it 😭 .