I need help.
To preface this, I'm an adult child early-mid 20s, cannot drive(no car, soon-to-expire PERMIT), no job, only some money, stuck living with my mother and ex stepfather due to neglect from one party (mother and ex).
A few days ago, I was given some very terrifying news from my mother that was basically "if this thing comes out [ex] might go to jail, and he will resist and might kill himself or us". I can't tell if this is real or not though, because she is mentally ill and tends to be very paranoid, and has lied to me a few times, but this was/is an abusive household (not physically) so I'm not sure what to think!
I don't necessarily want to leave her, because she does seem afraid of *something*, and I really don't want to leave my half-brother or our dog, but I'm SERIOUSLY CONSIDERING moving in with my bio dad. If not to escape the situation, then to simply get my fucking life on track and finally learn to be an adult outside of an unstable household
I just don't know how I can get out of this, if it's true then I'd be finding out around August and I just cannot do it. I can’t do the waiting. She asked me not to say anything to my dad but I'm so fucking scared, I haven't been able to sleep the past few days. My dad has two teens to take care of with my step mom, I don't want to add more to the pile especially since I'm an adult, but I know he's my dad and would be more than happy to help me out of here if he knew. I was going to switch custody over to him when I was in high school, but I chickened out. I feel so fucking stupid
I’m currently staying the night at his house, today(it’s 2am) would be the last chance I have to talk to him about this before I head back to my mom’s. I really don’t want to bring something this heavy up to him when I already barely visit, especially since we were having a nice time yesterday and since my mom asked me not to, but I just don’t know what to do. I only found out about this after I already made plans with him
I’m sorry if none of this makes sense, I’m so tired and stressed and I’ve been crying I didn’t read over it. It’s 2am
Edit: thanks to those who pushed me to actually say something, I feel a little better now. He and I, and my stepmom, had a long talk about things. As I thought, they’re both more than willing to help me and even willing to let me live with them until I can get onto my feet. I’m going back over for the 4th, hopefully we can actually get things moving now