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The human mind has a tendency of painting in black and white. I know mine did. A lot. There is no death. At all. That word, doesn't serve us, like so many words in the human language - because there's a continuous never ending life for a continuous ever lasting soul. And when we turn it around like that, everything becomes good.

What many people forget, also those who are deep into obe's, like I was, is that the brain was never meant for remembering - or solving every mystery. It's like a receiver. And that we burn out, if we don't take time to integrate. All the big questions out there becomes the web of entanglement itself. That pulls us under.

What I understood on my journey was, that as "selfish" as it sounds. I wasn't meant to solve every esoteric mystery in my human form. There's a reason I'm human. Theres a reason I'm here.

I was missing something: I had traversed the planes, and seen sights and wonders beyond measure - outside of me - and it served it's purpose - but I still didn't know myself.

That's when I started meditating and listening to my dreams. Obe's/AP's became secondary. If I even bothered. Because the stillness in meditation, that came alive, and my dreams were showing me all the aspects of myself, my emotional and my spiritual parts I had neglected for the grand experiences.

I had searched for god and helpers and and the big answers - out there, and forgotten that everything was inside the whole time.

A traumatic event gave me something called IFS therapy. I highly recommend it to everyone even if they don't have trauma. Because it's a gateway to the soul. Especially for those of us with AP knowledge.

I learned to do IFS therapy on my own. That was the doorway to a whole new world I never found in my previous searches, incl.obes. I found me. And finally I found the missing link.

Did you know that even a sudden migraine headache one day can be a call from a past life? I fell asleep while speaking with such a pain one day, and landed inside the body of a beautiful black woman living in colonial 1910. Me! Who's living a similar life as mine now! And I felt her from inside. All her memories. All the why's! She was injured in the head and was calling out for help in her pain. And I felt it felt in my body.

Did you know that an emotion (pick any) surfacing in meditation, can be a call from a lost part of yourself that forgot how to feel joy? Speak with it, even fall asleep with it, and meet your lost part in dreams. It will literally knock on your door in the dream and meet you there.

Did you know that peeling the layers of fears, trauma and learned convictions inside in IFS, literally reveals self love, self compassion, self gratitude and mother God herself - in you? And with that - the same compassion and understanding for everyone else?

There's a vast universe Inside - that so many people overlook. Because we're caught up looking outside. In to the big questions. When we learn to find our soul centered within. When we ask it to "show me". When you feel it's unlimited vastness. And know that you are it. And that it's right here, available. And that it doesn't take going through sleep paralysis to reach it. That's when you're home.

There's always a balance. In everything. And spirit calls that in when it's time. When the outside search is becoming fruitless. It's often known through emotions that attempts to drag us under and we are forced to look within.

I'd say, people give yourselves a year inside, in meditation, in getting to know your mind, your emotions - learn IFS therapy yourself, explore the sensations in your physical and emotional body and your soul through the physical vessel. You'll find the greatest gift you never knew where to look for.

And often a highly neglected part that was the very clue we never found - out there. Physicality.

I don't know why this came her. If it resonates, it was always yours ❤❤

I've been working with a form of therapy called IFS lately and I'm having great results. I never imagined I'd be finding past lives through this practice.

If you're familiar with IFS (internal family systems) you go in and communicate with parts of you - while you stay centered in your core/Self.

During reading a book about IFS parts, I got this intense pain in my forehead and my jaw. I lay down to try to speak with the pain to what was wrong, when I fell asleep.

In the dream I was a beautiful black woman with long dreadlocks, named Kishana in colonial Africa (Kenya) in 1910 - who had been hospitalized for a very long time because of a head injury. I was in her - and I was her.

I got so many details from her memories that I realized that most of the people who are in this current life of mine, we're also there, in hers - and that Kishana had an almost identical illness story as I do - the only differences were the location, time period and body/race, plus a few details due to this.

Talk about bleed-through!

I was releaved to hear that the.caretaker that she had fallen in love with (my ex...) told her: "Not long now, and you will be well again". I cling to this message as if it was for both of us.

Anyone else have similar experience with past lives bleeding through to their current life?

Ive been practicing IFS and finally the book No Bad Parts by Richard Schwartz landed in my mailbox. I started reading and I absolutely love the book.

I've been wondering lately if physical pain also could be parts expressing themselves. Suddenly I got this intense pain in my forehead and jaw.

I lay down to try to connect with that pain - I fell asleep and had a very vivid dream of being a black woman with long dreads in a colonial hospital in Kenya.

I was her - I felt me in her. Long story short, most of my current friends and loves were there. And I've lived the past many years of my life in "her shoes". Just in another body and another location.

Anyone else?

Does someone here have focal motor seizures with awareness intact. I've been dealing with a physical issue lately and it came to a point it triggered a massive seizure.

The entire right side of my abdomen cramped up, along with my throat and jaw (also right side) and then the right thigh.

My right hand/thumb also joined the "fun".

I've had this exact seizure twice, two years ago. But back then, it progressed even further - to my head and facial muscles turning to the left and I went into what looked like a full blown seizure.

I was aware all the time only interrupted by an initial brief violent dizziness. I also had speech arrest and the seizures came in clusters.

Anyone relate?

Thank you 💜

I wonder if anyone else in here is like me. When I have physical pain, I can feel the emotion inside that pain. I've been dealing with IBD and I clearly feel the emotion of deep grief in that pain. If anyone else feels this, how do you go about tapping into it? I've tried connecting with the pain but it is not able to speak yet.

Some memories don’t arrive as stories.
They arrive as sensations. Flashes. A quiet, unsettling knowing.

In parts work, like Internal Family Systems, we learn something important:
Not everything that surfaces needs to be immediately labeled as “fact” or “fiction.”

Sometimes, a part of us carries pain that has no clear timeline. No beginning. No neat narrative. Just a feeling that something wasn’t okay.

And the instinct is to ask:
“Did this really happen?”

But there is another question that might be more honest, and more healing:
“What in me is trying to be seen right now?”

Because the body doesn’t speak in court evidence.
It speaks in symbols, fragments, and emotional truths.

Yes, memories of trauma can be buried and later surface. And yes, the mind can also shape and express pain in ways that are not literal recordings.

So the work is not to force certainty.
Not to dig until you break yourself open trying to prove something.

The work is to stay with yourself.

To meet the part of you that carries this without rushing to define it, dismiss it, or turn it into a story too quickly.

You don’t need to have all the answers to begin healing. You don’t need a perfectly clear memory to honor that something in you hurts.

There is intelligence in what surfaces.
Even when it’s unclear.

And you are allowed to move gently with that.

I'm having great success engaging in IFS therapy on my own. Especially on lighter issues. Anyone else here doing the same?

I do have trauma and I've encountered times where it can be challenging to engage with several parts with exile and protection ongoing, and I do see why a good therapist is needed, but it has been good so far.

Do you have any advice for me regarding this?

I've found it important to spend enough time on each part, and that enganging with single parts (where possible) one on one, is easier and to always find a positive and healing conclusion to each session that the part feels comfortable ending each session with - and not leave things unfinished.

Please only constructive advice 💜 thank you for reading.

Who else has one or a few jerks happen either in the shoulder or the side after a doze. I can sit here and feel a brief doze attack come and it always ends with a jerk. I also sometimes have seizures.

Tell me about your jerks and how they happen.

I would love to hear what you guys see or hear at the moment of sleep paralysis AND even hypnagogia. Here a small collection of mine:

A male voice: "name" is already dead.

A male voice: Without the Great Octave, passing will be strenious.

A happy voice: When you have a body it's for your beautiful soul not to get out 🤪

Download: The life is chosen as a theme or a reference point. The entire experience goes on in the mind. Everyone is real. Real as in individual. But the avatars are the story, and the mind is ONE.

A voice: God is your brother. (After pondering of who God is)

A conversation going on right over my head by two people. One sounded like my dad, so I said: Hi dad, you OK? He replied : I'm doing great, how about you? I replied: awesome. Then I heard a podcast and realized it was the first podcast I listened to when I reconnected to the body.

A humorous voice: Come out then!

Vision of the firmament. Sun, moon, stars - artificial. And not very well made close up 😁

A note before my eyes, saying: The financial system coming down. Cryot0 takes over for a while 😶‍🌫️

Vision of dry land.

4 midget people standing at the foot of my bed.

Kind voice: Lighten your thoughts so you can see what's going on behind the scene.

Hypnagogia: People walking by, a woman peers right in my face, smiles and waves. A bird soaring up (day after a seagull died at the harbor). Happy faces, scary faces. People walking as if in a daze. (Many sleeping people) I have tons of these - and premonitions so I can't add them all.

Who has some to share? ☮️💜

So I'm suspecting narcolepsy and my doctor just prescribed vitamin D because I was low. I'm having wonderful waking days but at night I'm crashing with severe fatigue and drowsiness to the point it hurts to have to get out of bed. Anyone else react like this to vitamin D? Does it pass when levels are normal?

Any idea to diagnose narcolepsy? I already have focal seizures. Left frontotemporal.

I love experimenting with consciousness and this morning I was meditating. I got to a relaxed and comfortable space approx 5 minutes later and I started wiggling and swaying my consciousness inside the body.

I instantly started having hypnagogia. Usually hypnagogia is something that happens right before sleep in my case, but this time it was instant with the wiggling - and I also felt the familiar "dizzy" feeling right before an AP.

So clearly the wiggling triggers something!

In this wiggling experience I started wondering what was up in the blue skies. Immediately I saw the firmament with the stars and the sun, and it was looking kinda artificial. And to my opinion, not very well done haha.

I tried to look closer and my vision zoomed in. I saw other stuff up there too but I have no idea what it was. It looked like streaks and worms. 😅

Anyway, has anyone else had experience with wiggling in meditation. Anything you'd like to add? Other cool tricks or ideas?

So I've always wondered; since we're these balls of light (consciousness) when astral traveling unless we choose to have an astral body. How did our physical bodies come about? Are they also projections of our minds or is it something deeper? Is it possible to change your physical avatar based on knowing this, and if yes - has anyone figured out how?