canadian with new auditory hallucinations (im almost certain but not quite 100%) maybe i just dont want to admit it
Hey , so im a drug addict open and admittedly to all my family and friends, have been abandoned by them all theres a few who still are too nice to fully stop talking to me but ignore me if i try to hangout answer next day etc…. I usedto be the guy with the house everyone hungout at, have housed all of these guys in their hardships no questions asked, anyhow im just giving background to the stress in my life. gf of 4 yrs left me a month ago i dont feel that beat up or upset i knew we werent lasting forever but maybe its hitting me harder than i think anyhow irrelevant.
I began hearing my neighbors voices mostly the father, hes a hippy type dude nice guy shy kinda antisocial in a way, started with his voices as im up smoking drugs all night (alone and overly quiet) paranoid windows covered , i always would and do think and hear him yelling in different ways for me to shut up.
i have done some not so legal things(never hurt or harmed anyone just money bs) and somehow in my head he knows every detail and threatens me all night its actually anytime im inside my house (i live alone right beside them on the water maybe 8ft away, their bedroom is on the close side wall so not far) all i can hear is him threatening if i dont be quiet hes gunna kick my ass or call cops whatever negative things never life taking though.
a few weeks in now the wife is involved in the hullucinations(sorry as i said im a drug addict not a scholar forgive my spelling) and they will argue between eachother about anythint, but mostly how to punish or get me to be quiet.
now the ither side neighbors just moved in. younger 20s very nice but loud drinking everynight music so the voices have started asking me to get them to shut the f*ck up however i can blah blah blah.
i guess my question is, am i fulll blown schizophrenic or just in a drug / lack of sleep / stress form of serious temporary psychosis?
forgot to add, i will get yelled at all night, while im being quiet as a mouse deep down i know they cant hear me, but it seems so actually real, ill see the wife the next day walking dogs and she will smile spark a conversation not trying to get away as if were bestfriends, which i am the nicest person ever, it just confuses the frig out of me, feel free to ask any questions to get a more solid answer, im not fragile please be real with me,
Thanks