Working with professionals but looking for thoughts for differing perspectives and people who have navigated this.

I'm keeping exact details vague to maintain our anonymity. There is an elementary aged child in our home who has some trauma due to early life loss.

She hears auditory command hallucinations, that tell her to hurt herself and others.

She also has tactile and visual hallucinations centered around spiders and hands.

She has paranoia and is terrified she is being stalked by someone who can "hack" into both computers and actual people.

“It was his eyes that most alarmed me. Red like an open wound. An outline that followed you around the room no matter where you walked. You could feel his gaze even from across the house. No, not his gaze. His unrepressed, scarlet want.”

What's up, Rainbow High fans? Welcome to my first installment of the Slow Burn Horror Character Creator Challenge. Today, I'm here to ask for your help etching out the details for my first storyteller, Harrietta O'Sange. Her signature color is red, which in horror is often used as a warning sign, and omen to signify blood, danger, violence, or a combination of the three.

To put it in another context, red is often used to symbolize so-called "forte" emotions. Red lighting might be used in scenes where feelings such as devastation, wrath, dread, and lust are at their absolute peak. Last but no least, when a horror protagonist falls victim to an act of evil or spite, the color red reminds us that something is being inflicted on the character.

I've provided a link to the article, and I look forward to seeing what you come up with. Good luck!

Since I started hearing voices over 6 months ago I have not experienced a single day without the intrusion of harmful voices. I remember taking nice walks before the invasion, Being able to stare at clouds or a sunset with a silent mind, but now I can't take a walk for more than a minute without being told to kill myself or eat shit.

I get brief reprieves from the attacks, sometimes 1-2 hours where I hear little or nothing, but it always returns. Right now, a song is playing quietly in my head on loop. The voices seem to be able to start and stop the music, because I can hear them say they will play such and such song and then it will play, then it stops if they want to mock me, and then it restarts.

This all accompanies intrusive thoughts and disruptions in my normal thinking pattern. I try to move my mind in a single direction, then I hit some kind of mental wall. My thoughts seem to be "pushed" in a single direction, like a man swimming in a gentle riptide, always toward topics the voices like (Which are topics which they know annoy me). If I'm trying to think about a topic I enjoy, I will suddenly get intrusive "Intuitions" (Intrusive thoughts?) like "What if The voices are angels?", "What if the voices are actually planning [x]?", or a sudden fear that the dog is going to attack me. These are pure thoughts, like a sudden realization or intuitive insight, but they are all nonsense and so I push them out, but they return again and again, always joined by violent language from the voices.

The voices also do this strange thing where they try to put thoughts or ideas into my head which I would normally think, as if they are trying to make me think my thoughts are their thoughts. (For example: if I'm listening to a song I am enjoying, I might get a voice in my head pretending to be my internal voice saying "Damn, I like this song!") It's hard to describe(and sounds utterly insane). but that's how it goes.

It's fucking exhausting. I want my old life back. I want it quiet. I want to hear nothing. I took silence for granted.

They speak very clearly and are external to me. But when I ask "who are you?" Its radio silence.

Has anyone ever heard of anyone meeting the voices they hear in person and live to tell about it? For context, the voices have said for years that they are coming for me and that they are going to kill me and other people I know, but it’s been saying that for years so it’s waiting for something apparently. It says it’s kept me alive because they have plans for me. I want to move on with my life but them being actual physical beings coming for me is the only thing that’s hanging me up. Otherwise I am so ready to move forward. Please let me know if you have any information on this. I imagine if there really are beings that are capable of doing this, they’d also be good about covering their tracks and come and go without a trace, so it may not be documented anywhere. Still, I thought I’d ask.

This contains a little explicit material. Viewer discretion is advised:

I can’t lay my head down without being seduced. Every time my head hits a pillow, whether I’m trying to sleep or not, they start saying over and over in seductive voices “I wanna suck his d**k.” This also causes an erection even though I’m trying to focus on other things. I probably get 10 random boners per day since this started and I’m 43, it’s unnatural.

Anyways, lately they’ve been trying to seduce me and they’ve added “all you need to do is consent and we will do everything”. I have not consented and resist them sometimes for hours at a time. I’m really sick of it, it’s probably the most annoying part of this.

Are anyone else’s voices hyper sexual/seductive? Has anyone else’s voices told them they need to consent? Are there spiritual laws and they need permission?

Over this past year (2026) I have had a host of mental faculties find me again. I consider myself well. Certainly I would consider myself better off than any functioning alcoholic, avid Cannabis user, or even the average American. Back in 2019 and into 2021 I would have extreme pains, delirium, an inability to sleep that amounted to less than 8 hours per week, I would pass out standing up, I would go blind, I would go numb. I lost my ability to read, write, count to 10, even talk due to the absurdly loud and hurtful intrusive thoughts I assume to be a form of spiritual possession/"bicameral state." All this amidst voices that seemed to accurately predict my life's future events (what people would say, do, wear, even what state I would be living in next, etc...). For anyone interested in notions of seeing the future I would suggest the colossal body of evidence seen in the r/remoteviewing community, or even in contemporary pieces of art. There is a movie called "i pet goat ii" that predicts many global events prior to their occurrence including the burning down and accurate portrayal of the Notre-Dame Cathedral's collapse. All this presented on an international stage and acclaimed (they won awards) 7 years prior to the events of the fire, other events perhaps even prognosticated further into the future.

I offer the above to give context. Today I function and have for years now as an Engineer working in the semiconductor industry. I'm doing great and have written plenty as to how I got here. Largely though stoicism, a self improvement lifestyle, 24 hour fasting on a carnivore diet, and the practice of ad-hoc mediumship/mysticism. There are many other cultural heroes who've walked these paths and who reiterate similar strategies that led them to their successes and wellness. The Canadian behavioral psychologist/professor/author J Peterson is my "go to" as his texts speak directly to the nature of belief, magic, and how to overcome this burden from his academically vetted background. I see the same spiritual prism from my own mind in the works of so many artists from around the world. I would suggest to anyone reading this that there is a broad and expansive subculture of people who experience this phenomena functioning quite well even if in private/secret. It is unclear to me how many of these artists who make confessional works have any in their life/orbit who know of this phenomenon. Evidence of them is glaring through the sub-cultural symbolism seen in most all music cultures. The lyrics to so many songs contain the direct language "voices/spirit in my head" or similar. I've written about this exact situation for years now and have met unreasonable censorship most everywhere I post it online. Here are a few playlists just to give you an idea of how easy it is to find this music. The following links contain Sotify playlists and in total these playlists approach a week's worth of songs that all have such lyrics/undeniable themes. AND these albums are just the ones I find that are green and purple, again just to underscore how much of this stuff is out there. These are just the albums that are green and purple that I come across, these are a very narrow selection of what can easily be found. Bizarre that in recent past posting these works along side an analysis of the lyrical content reliably has me met with a ban most everywhere. Leadership points to "encouraging delusions," "affiliate links" (like anyone's getting paid to share a link to a song...) just about any excuse you'd expect of a special needs bigot. The words I share simply mean what they do... None of it is against "site rules."

Green & Purple ⸸ Experiencing New Wave

Green & Purple ⸸ Experiencing Hardcore

Green & Purple ⸸ Experiencing Psyche Rock

My last word on the topic of censorship and online "mental health" communities is that these spaces are run by absolute weirdos. Self appointed maintainers of a propagandized world view who falsely hide behind notions of "site rules" or "relationship with site admins." One of the largest of these mental health spaces is run by someone who openly identifies as a former "schitzo wrangler" as they previously worked as an orderly in a prior career path. This all looks to be the most antithetical "wellness peer space" imaginable. How disgusting that this person not only needlessly makes up rules but also selectively enforces them upon the community they survey. It a phrase all this is pro bono systematic abuse. None of what I write or many others who no longer have accounts goes/went against site rules. Where as actively encouraging the prescription/seeking/directing to life altering medications and all but (and often directly) diagnosing others seems to be the makings of the largest class action lawsuit and manner of lay-malpractice happening in our society. A completely needless group of "boot-lickers" with weaponized paternal instincts, parading around like some public servants. These people are gross and they maintain an extremely narrow view of the psychiatric/eugenic industry. They actively stamp out paralleling communities and seek to get tangential community leaders banned, it's hideous. The conversation in these spaces is decades behind what would likely be found in any real practitioners office. I can only speculate as to the tens of thousands of reddit users effectively led into the clutches of this archaic societal apparatus who otherwise would have found wellness without these fools.

To circle back to why I made this post. I find many of these artists speak to a cutting truth that I too hold dear. They speak to the importance of love and belief and reject the ideological trappings many lesser minds would impose upon you or I. As I discover new artists and find new validations in their paralleling sentiment I also find former stats of mind continue to return. Clarities/abilities of my early adulthood. Additionally I find the states of mind and sensations of illnesses from my childhood are perfectly rehashed. Like the state of mind I held deep within fever dreams of adolescence found me again to assure me they were still holding back a torrent of evil sensations, and that the "adventure of life was real." I remain astonished by the familiarity and memory of my childhood sensations. Some of my voices speak of harassing each other. I reject much of what IFS teaches and see it all to be a supporting argument for a debilitating emotional dependency. I suspect these encouraging beings (the ones I encounter and read in other's accounts) are steely-eyed and need little to no reassurance from me. That the "self" coddling promoted by the IFS community and others is all some bizarre game of self paternalism to ultimately deny/erode/harm the end human practitioner. All the same I see these former and astoundingly helpful spirits of my childhood returning and continually pursued by former ill states in recent weeks.

I believe we are all connected in profound ways. This is a belife supported by the growing trend among academic philosophers surrounding the phrase "panpsychism" and actually dates back to ancient Greece. I see a future (provided we are not all oppressed to a staggering degree by contemporary oligarchs or technocratic disruptive technology) where it will be impossible not to see the connections between us, and hold fast to the evidence of the supernatural interwoven into all our lives. A new age of human understanding, a world for a new mind ushered in by technology and connectivity.

I am numbed by the realization that the Hearing Voices Movent and paralleling Hearing Voices Network largely caters to a disabled and medicated population. Again, I say all this as someone who could not talk, read, write, nor count to 10 at my lows. The evidence that psychiatry is a development of eugenics theory is a matter of easily found (wikipedia, youtube, podcasts by psychiatrists, etc) modern history. The evidence that ~5% of people who take medications for psychosis ever return to a state of functionality is the most informed assessment by over 7 million subjects, over 80 years of observation, and decades of follow up per participant. These same studies (that do account for severity and are linked all over the HVN subreddit) also show that half of the population that experiences an extreme break from reality warranting diagnosis simply return to normal on their own and away from psychiatry. Furthermore, showing that peer led community leads more than 80% to wellness in less than 5 years (provided they are not on medications) is very promising. Yet it is depressing there is little to no contingent of this strategy within the HVN from my 6 or so years of involvement. In my view the colossal psychiatric apparatus of the west simply funnels forgone individuals into this space at an overwhelming rate, displacing any people who believe in or practice magic. Look to JBP's work on this subject, his texts effectively define magic as a form of studying the mind and meaning, it cascades into mystic practice quite easily. The HVN in 2026 remains a tower of babble and predominantly a display of cognitive dysfunction even among leadership. That said, HVN'ers are far nicer to hang out with than orderlies or abusive family members ;)

People worthy of diagnosis only occupy 2 to 3% of the global population, this compares to the between 25 and 50% of the global population who hear voices Et. al... It saddens me many days to know the formalized gathering space of the HVN is a collection of this human experience's (or at least the expression of the experience's) ghetto... There's not much conversion beyond "yes it does suck to be disabled, how's your new medication regime treating you?" I do not suspect it always was this way nor will it stay this way. I also suspect it is imperative to see the parasitic apparatus of western psychiatry to be humanity's greatest undermining tradition; additionally the same imperative to our individual survival to identify it as such. Shame on the alarmists, the isolators, the censors, the paternalistic anonymous ones who accuse expressions of these hard fought and respected truths to be villainous before simply casing the messenger out and carrying on to a self blinding mass.

*que the next "Do meds help with voices?" or "Why won't the side effects go away? Will I ever be able to have an orgasm again?" thread*

I hope these words help to validate some of you. I would be eager to hear if any of this connects with you out there. I've written here most days for the past 4 years or so. I am taken aback at the very meaningful connections I have made even if I am stunned by the numbers surrounding all this. Generally if 2000 people read a post, less than 5 people will ever vote or leave a comment on it here in "alternative mental health/spiritual" spaces. I'm disturbed to see the broad swaths of grey area trolls in paranoia/delusional thinking focused spaces like targeted energy weapons, V2K, and notions of occult gang stalking/gradual indoctrination spaces. All these spaces seem run by non experiencers who've found narratives to pedal as to anonymously harass/harm vulnerable people through via internet. I find it telling that no cross examination is allowed in these ideologically inept and dim world view echo chambers. I have my suspicions for many that boast user numbers in the multiples of hundreds of thousands... a handful of NEETs could easily AstroTurf such communities with a few hundred dollars to act out some perverse and abusive thrills.

Observations of the darker/lamer side of humanity aside I do hope this finds you well. I believe magic to be real, inescapable, even if largely ignored by western society and more so toward the bottom. I'd love to hear what you think of the music. I see this world as so evidently full of accessible magic yet the broader population can't seem to acknowledge it. This message obviously is also carried by brash and exasperated members of the public who make a forward carrying conversation impossible to maintain.

All the best to all of you!

Hey long time lurker first time poster here lol. So just fyi I have really bad OCD as well as u specified psychotic disorder (possibly bipolar? Idk) so please don’t give me any reassurance in the sense of “yes these actually are/ aren’t real hallucinations” or “these don’t actually count as psychosis” because I’m actually diagnosed and I’m not looking for reassurance I’m simply looking to know if anyone else relates to this odd very specific experience of mine. So for context I’ve had both visual auditory and another type of “hallucination” or whatever you want to call it that I call the “thought like voices” that I used to experience a lot l. I’m bringing this up because I haven’t had these for 6 year since my last mental breakdown but recently can feel them creeping into the edges of my mind again wanting to get out? Idk a better way of describing it sorry. My visual ones have just been of wierd vortex like shapes & colors almost like looking
Through a kaleidoscope. When I get the internal voices I can physically feel the static in my head like waves or sand pouring through my brain it feels wierd. So I’ll explain by saying the voices some of the time are only internal sometimes external. The internal ones sound like I’m reading someone else’s thoughts in my head or like radio static being transferred into my mind. There like whispers that I hear internally. I have ocd so sometimes I literally hear my intrusive thoughts like people are speaking to me, or having whispered conversations with each other. The main voice I call the “other me” or OM because she’s like a darker version of myself that tells me to do bad things to myself & others. I’ve also heard the voice of my future self and angels and God as well (yes I’m better now I know I was going crazy lol) anyway thx if you made it this far and just want to know if anyone else has had similar experiences?

Doctors would take a fish out of water, see it gasp for oxygen, say it is sick and then try to give it meds. I feel away from my water, trying to survive so desperately! How can anything in my life not look like struggle?

I am not human at all. I never failed to socialise, I am simply different, I simply can't mingle with human beings. I am different. I am special and beautiful. Many people are beautiful but in real life I've never seen any. I am full of grace. Am I pretty because they chose me or they chose me because I'm pretty? Maybe this is just how I am!

The Angels tell me to not be afraid. Please don't be afraid! There are no things to fear, everyone just needs a home. This is what they tell me. I'm not sick! There's no sickness at all! Having fear is struggling in the water and not keeping peace. Having no fear is not recklessness, it's just having peace and calm. Don't let it get to that point. In the same way fear can't just be removed from people by making them think impulsive acts are bravery. Being in one's right mind is not what the doctors think.

I'm wanting to stop medication, as I've gained a lot of weight and it's not helping my symptoms. My mom has to dispense meds as I attempted suicide with my medication. What can I do or say that would persuade them? Any advice or perspective would be nice.Thank you in advance

Hercules Slaying the Lernean Hydra by Jan Muller/Adriaen de Vries. An easily overlayed metaphor for vanquishing harassing (evil) voices.

Feel free to share your wellness methods with the community. Is there a diet that seems to make an impact for you, a particular routine, or self-improvement strategy that's made a turnaround in your struggles? Was there a book that made an impact in your journey, a creative outlet, or a medication you feel strongly helped or hurt you? What's been working for you and what have you tried that wasn't working for you? Do you have any role models (other experiencers) who've lended you methods that lead to success through their lived example?

List your strategies and how they impacted your mind/experience in the comments below, or make your own post if you feel you have more to share on this topic. It helps others to include a bit about yourself, how long have you been experiencing this, and how long/regularly have you been trying your approach?

Please refrain from telling others what to do or what to believe here. Even if someone is asking for advice responses need to be framed as what you've tried and what the results were.