u/Bluebonnet3

I’m gonna talk about something probably nobody’s gonna agree with. And it’s about embracing your dark side. I would say I’m about 1/4 light and 3/4 dark.

The 1/4 light is so beautiful. It’s my wife. It’s my kids and it’s humanity as a hole. But it’s the 3/4 of darkness that got me through what I had to go through.

i’ve gone through shit that I haven’t heard anybody talk about around here or anywhere for that fact. I don’t believe when somethings attacking you tell them you have nothing but love for them and start repeating mantra dear God, please make me a bird so I can fly far far far away over and over. I would say if you’re gonna repeat a mantra say I am stronger than you. You have no power or influence over me.

today I don’t hear a word my voices say and I believe that’s because I stood up for myself. and I did it by staying strong staying calm, but not feeding them negative energy and taking control over our situation.

Now that my voices are quiet and I have had time to reflect I realize I have always had this darkness with me. When I was a kid before I was even in school my parents had a couple move in with us, Sam and Dorian. my parents would always take in somebody down on their luck as long as they would keep a job while they stayed with us. I believe that seeing things like that from my parents is what made the light I have today so strong.

They had two kids. there was a neighbor kid across the street who had a cooties game and they would play it on sidewalk, but he would never let me play. And then he started to push Sam and Dorian‘s kids around and tell everybody he takes boxing lessons.

I used to rock cowboy boots back then so I told Sam and Doreen’s kids to bring him to the back of the apartments and say they had something to show him. We had a deck back there attached to our apartments.

I stood up on the deck and waited for him to come on the side of the house and when I seen him, I jumped off and booted him in the head with my cowboy boots and he dropped.

His dad came over to the house after that and my dad pretty much took care of that and after that day, he never tried to push us around again

I remember they were in school and my mom would say the kids are getting off school and I would ride my he-man big wheel to the bus stop to make sure they got home safe. where did that darkness come from at such an early age?

it’s all been a progression for me, climbing the ladder on the dark side. It’s like I’ll get so far and then I will fade to black and when this happens, I get an upgrade. I climbed this ladder with the darkness inside me, but when I get the upgrade, I project it towards light.

i’ve been thinking back I used to be around a motorcycle club called the chosen view. They had four sixes on the back of their rocker. I asked him one day I gotta ask what’s the fourth six about. And he smiled at me and said we stole one from the devil. and today, I wonder if that’s exactly what’s going on with me.

I used to hang out with a different motorcycle club, and I was outside smoking with the president. He had a red rocker and a club hat on with lightning bolts. He told me a lot of people think that the lightning bolts are racist. I smiled at him and said electric light in the dead at night and he smiled back.

Everything has been blue for me a very dark vibrant blue. When he smiled at me, he said he has a good friend who is true blue too. I realize once you stay true to who you are through everything you’re up against you can use your upgrades for whatever you want. so if you want to project them towards light, you have earned that right.

It wasn’t easy to get where I’m at, but everybody is so friendly to me today everywhere I go. It’s something both sides can respect. For anybody out there punching that blue ticket. It’s a long ride and so much temptation along the way. I knew that I am the strongest with my wife and family so I got in the mindset that I wasn’t gonna go down for women money or power and once you get that mindset, they really don’t have much to offer. stay strong everyone and get that progression rolling so many people stay idle and suffer their whole life.

does anybody know of any good Discord for TI besides parawareness.

#1 when you first start hearing voices they’re gonna try to see if they can control you. It’s a power move. It might be something as simple as telling you to call in sick to work or eat a specific food. Or it could be something big like telling you to leave your wife because she’s cheating on you or to even harm yourself or others. Don’t ever do anything you wouldn’t have done before you started hearing voices. If voices give you a suggestion on something that is helpful it’s OK to do that because it’s your decision and your decision alone. You will always decide what’s best for you.

#2 all these voices do is lie and try to get you to turn against everything and everybody you love. Their goal is to isolate you so they are the only influence in your life.. surround yourself with trustworthy people and nothing else. I notice when I have trouble with a certain person they emphasize on that person and then months later, I have trouble with someone else and they emphasize on them and don’t say much about the last person. It’s just a flavor of the month for them to attack. Don’t believe anything they say.

#3 catchphrases-these are phrases they use constantly they do this so it’s easy to get your attention when they use them. They will use these catchphrases to disrupt a conversation You might be having with someone. or when you’re trying to get something done and need to focus. Locate these catchphrases they’re using on you. It might be a compliment or something that pisses you off. Once you locate these phrases, treat it like you’re busy with something and you’re getting a phone call silence it or put it on hold. There is nothing they have to say that can’t wait. They are on your time.

#4 they also mock me this is when they say what I’m thinking exactly when I think it. I only have one voice that does this the one I call mouth the other do not. When I try to explain this to people, they always say that’s your own voice, that’s why you hear it as you think it. He sounds nothing like me and one of the voices that I hear is a woman. These voices are very clever. It’s almost like they have a playbook of situations they put you in time and time again that are automatically associated with mental illness. It’s a deck of card stack just right.

#5 Fill in the blanks when they talk in riddles or start a sentence and leave it for you to finish. They are just trying To see how you feel about that situation. They are breaking you down.

#6 I know it is frustrating but don’t push your loved ones away. They cannot possibly understand what we are going through. They just love and worry about us and don’t know how to help. This is hard on everybody.

#7 Don’t let them attach themselves to situations. For example if something bad happens to you or someone you know they’re going to tell you that they are responsible for it they are not.

#8 if you need a break from
voices .Get a pair of earbuds put only one earbud in One ear listen to music at a low volume then watch TV on a higher volume Focus on what’s on TV with the music in the background this makes voices a third-party and hard to understand what they are saying. if possible, use the one earbud at work you can still communicate with people and have the music as your background.

#9 You are not alone, Go to hearing voices network. There you can find weekly zoom meetings with people that hear voices. there is no judgment there. It’s people that don’t believe it’s a mental illness. there’s also a sub on Reddit.

#10 They read You in your dreams, your insecurities, your fears and anything else they can attack. I wake up in the middle of the night and find myself having a conversation with them. I call it second shift. it’s always the same voice on second shift. The one I call gazelle he’s with me all day long too It’s like he never sleeps. Become secure with who you are and it will carry into your subconscious. you need to rebuild and become secure with who you are . Voices love to bring up your past if there’s things you have done in the past that other people thought were wrong, but it was justified to you don’t change that . if there’s things you have done in the past, and you know, they were wrong chalk it up to life experience and know that next time you’re put in that situation, you will handle it different . If you were abused in the past voices, love to have you relive that pain . you can’t change the past, but you can change your future live for today and everything else will fall in place. It’s all about taking control. I also believe this is where these intrusive thoughts and strong urges come from. I would get strong urges to commit suicide. If you have had thoughts of suicide prior to hearing voices they will latch onto that. A good friend told me that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Stay strong you are in the fight of your life don’t go down by your own hand. I realized they were planting these thought when I started having thoughts like a pedophile. I am 45 years old and have kids of my own. I have always loved kids and had a strong hate for pedophiles. So I realize these are not my thoughts and that I have never thought like this before I heard voices. It does no good to get worked up about it. Just brush it off and these thoughts will start to fade. I notice when I first get up in the morning I’m thinking about my past or what these voices are . This is second shift digging around and planting seeds . don’t jump to any conclusions when you first wake up in the morning. give yourself time to wake up take a shower eat breakfast. Get ready to start your day before you put any real thought into anything.

#11 I used to hear four voices two guys a girl and an old man. The old man was pure evil and claimed to be with the devil. I was walking through the kitchen one day, and I felt a huge vibration go through my body. It was so powerful It dropped me to one knee. I’m not really sure what it was, but ever since that day three years ago, I have never heard the old man’s voice again. I just hear the two guys and a girl. it is possible for a voice to leave.

#12 gang stalking-complete strangers come up to me all the time and say things like you gotta stay calm or glad to see you’re still surviving. Back when I used to give my voices the satisfaction of fighting with them all day I would tell them I don’t give a fuck who you are and that I would fight all of them with no shoes on. A couple weeks later I’m at work sorting out stone for the next wall we were gonna do. I see a man walking down the road with his shoes in his hand yelling where the fuck are you at? And really didn’t know who he was looking for. That’s when I realized this guy hears voices too and they want us to bump heads. Things like this would happen time and time again so if something like this happens to you. Stay calm. It’s probably somebody who hears voices too. I noticed when strangers say things to me they appear to be nervous about saying them. I believe this is what people refer to as gang stocking. just be friendly and go on your way.

#13 if you’re seeing things that are right in front of you get a laser pointer point it at what you are seeing it will go right through it. That means it’s impossible for it to hurt you. If you see your kid or loved ones turn into a demon don’t panic, it’s just an illusion. When you hear bad things on the news people say “ What were they thinking” It’s because they have no idea what we are going through. Don’t be a statistic. it only takes one situation to ruin your life. There are so many people in prison today because of voices and things they were seeing. If you own a gun, get them out of the house or lock them up and give someone else the key. The bullet is just gonna go through whatever you are seeing and could hit someone you love. I also want to stress that they don’t always look like demons. Lots of nights I would be laying in bed and I could see two men standing in the hallway. One was even on a cell phone with it lit up. Be careful with this. It looks so real. I would get up and check the whole house. There would never be anybody there. It’s just an illusion. this is not a fight that can be won physically. It’s all mentally it has to come from within.

#14 seeing things in windows and reflections-I’ve seen a lot of things in windows, like people, demons and even aliens. When this happens, they make themselves sound like they’re right outside or in the next room totally different from how I hear them in my head all day long. It even sounds like they’re tapping on the window or banging on the wall. I’ve been through a lot with this sometimes it would even sound like my wife or daughter was screaming for help in the other room. I would run in there and they would always be fine. After this happened so many times you realize that it’s just a mindfuck and an illusion like everything else. also when I look in the mirror, my face changes sometimes.they’re gonna try to convince you that you’re something you’re not it’s all an illusion with a mental illness tag attached to it.like I said before a deck of cards stacked just right. A lot of things cast reflections so if it gets to be too much and you need a break just read a book or do a crossword puzzle Nothing reflects off the pages. at first, you’re gonna wanna not take your eyes off it don’t worry nothing is gonna happen. It’s just a reflection. You will find this out in time..

#15 fading to black-I see things every day, but sometimes it gets real intense and it can last for days. This usually only happens once or twice a year. I faded to black for three days over Easter weekend and for the first time, I heard new voices and they were looking for a fight. They were claiming to be sons of the devil .I could hear what sounded like recordings of people talking about me like things that I have done Most of them were not true. When I sat on the toilet in the bathroom it looked like it was infested with rats. I could see them crawling on the sink and all over the floor. I could see people in blue cloaks running around outside the house way too fast to be human. I went to smoke a cigarette in the garage and I saw a man dressed in black. His face was white like chalk with a black swirl on it. And he had the coldest eyes I have ever seen. They were pitch black. He would just stand there and sometimes smile at me. On the third night, I heard these loud bells coming from the backyard. So I went to see what it was. There was a tall man in a robe with antlers holding a book. I told him I would have nothing to do with any evil, and he walked away. I could fill a book with experiences like I’m talking about. Recently I was laying on the couch and I heard voices say are you ready for Easter weekend again? Then I started to hear new voices and they were looking for a fight. I’ve been down this road so many times before so this time I told myself I wasn’t gonna let these voices get me worked up. So I closed my eyes and thought about things that make me happy. Like being in the yard with my kids on a summer day and remembering the first time I held them in my arms when they were born. I had my eyes closed and I begin to see a Smoky haze of different colors. I have seen Haze like this before, but it’s usually just blue. This time it was green, yellow, and purple. And then it started to show me ancient Egypt, and how they lived and things to do with the universe. I would see different entities, smiling, and waving at me and a feeling of peace and love. it was an amazing experience. I realize now when this energy comes strong it adapts to what you put out. It’s these voices job to get you worked up with fear and hate so this energy can attach in a negative way. Now that I know this, I will no longer fade to black only light. I believe that this energy that is with us now uses our eyes like projectors that’s why it works good on windows and can adapt to anything with a base and build on it. It’s also why you can’t grab it and you go through it like a hologram. and it’s also why no one else can see it.

#16 today I am living my best life. I work a full-time job love spending time with friends and family and people can’t tell that I hear voices unless I tell them it’s all about finding balance. hearing voices can happen to anybody .I personally didn’t- start hearing voices until after my 40th birthday. It is so hard to find real help for this the only way you can truly understand it is if you have gone through it. If you know somebody who could use this, please pass it on. and always remember never do anything you wouldn’t have done before you started hearing voices

i’ve been hearing voices for over seven years now constantly from the minute, I get up until I go to bed at night. I’ve been to hell and back with my voices and it’s not just voices. I see things in so many ways and get visited by different entities pretty regularly. The entities don’t communicate with words .i’ve just become comfortable with everything..

I want people to realize that they feed off negative energy fear, anger, frustration don’t give it to them. find the ways they’re getting this negative energy from you and cut it off.

For the last couple years, all me and my voice have done Was Joke around and laughed all day long. that’s because they know I’m not gonna put out any negative energy for them to feed off.

and after doing this for so long, I couldn’t hear them as good. When they were getting negative energy from me they came in Crystal clear and I started to notice. I had to really concentrate to hear what they were saying now.

I was awakened on wings of fire.
So I had a talk with my voices. I told them I realize that I had to go through everything that I went through to be awakened. but now it’s time for me to take off the training wheels. And fly solo. And since we’ve had that talk, things have been quiet as far as voices

I have met people and seen a side of this that most people will never get a chance to see. nobody’s coming to save you so you need to get strong and save yourself. Break down the ways they’re making you miserable and find ways to overcome it.

I posted a survival guide for people who hear and see hostile voices and hallucinations here on positive TI that shows how I did just that. i’m gonna take some time this summer and do a video that updates that Because I’ve learned so much since I wrote that. it just seems like the right thing to do is to leave something behind for the next ones. when you hit the crossroads so much temptation comes your way.. just be who you truly are and you won’t be filtered into something you’re not.

i’ve been hearing voices for over seven years now constantly from the minute, I get up until I go to bed at night. I’ve been to hell and back with my voices and it’s not just voices. I see things in so many ways and get visited by different entities pretty regularly. The entities don’t communicate with words .i’ve just become comfortable with everything..

I want people to realize that they feed off negative energy fear, anger, frustration don’t give it to them. find the ways they’re getting this negative energy from you and cut it off.

For the last couple years, all me and my voice have done Was Joke around and laughed all day long. that’s because they know I’m not gonna put out any negative energy for them to feed off.

and after doing this for so long, I couldn’t hear them as good. When they were getting negative energy from me they came in Crystal clear and I started to notice. I had to really concentrate to hear what they were saying now.

I was awakened on wings of fire.
So I had a talk with my voices. I told them I realize that I had to go through everything that I went through to be awakened. but now it’s time for me to take off the training wheels And fly solo. And since we’ve had that talk, things have been quiet as far as voices

I have met people and seen a side of this that most people will never get a chance to see. nobody’s coming to save you so you need to get strong and save yourself. Break down the ways they’re making you miserable and find ways to overcome it.

I posted a survival guide for people who hear and see hostile voices and hallucinations here on positive TI that shows how I did just that. i’m gonna take some time this summer and do a video that updates that Because I’ve learned so much since I wrote that. it just seems like the right thing to do is to leave something behind for the next ones. when you hit the crossroads so much temptation comes your way.. just be who you truly are and you won’t be filtered into something you’re not.

survival guide for people who hear and see hostile voices, and entities.

#1 when you first start hearing voices they’re gonna try to see if they can control you. It’s a power move. It might be something as simple as telling you to call in sick to work or eat a specific food. Or it could be something big like telling you to leave your wife because she’s cheating on you or to even harm yourself or others. Don’t ever do anything you wouldn’t have done before you started hearing voices. If voices give you a suggestion on something that is helpful it’s OK to do that because it’s your decision and your decision alone. You will always decide what’s best for you.

#2 all these voices do is lie and try to get you to turn against everything and everybody you love. Their goal is to isolate you so they are the only influence in your life.. surround yourself with trustworthy people and nothing else. I notice when I have trouble with a certain person they emphasize on that person and then months later, I have trouble with someone else and they emphasize on them and don’t say much about the last person. It’s just a flavor of the month for them to attack. Don’t believe anything they say.

#3 catchphrases-these are phrases they use constantly they do this so it’s easy to get your attention when they use them. They will use these catchphrases to disrupt a conversation You might be having with someone. or when you’re trying to get something done and need to focus. Locate these catchphrases they’re using on you. It might be a compliment or something that pisses you off. Once you locate these phrases, treat it like you’re busy with something and you’re getting a phone call silence it or put it on hold. There is nothing they have to say that can’t wait. They are on your time.

#4 they also mock me this is when they say what I’m thinking exactly when I think it. I only have one voice that does this the one I call mouth the other do not. When I try to explain this to people, they always say that’s your own voice, that’s why you hear it as you think it. He sounds nothing like me and one of the voices that I hear is a woman. These voices are very clever. It’s almost like they have a playbook of situations they put you in time and time again that are automatically associated with mental illness. It’s a deck of card stack just right.

#5 Fill in the blanks when they talk in riddles or start a sentence and leave it for you to finish. They are just trying To see how you feel about that situation. They are breaking you down.

#6 I know it is frustrating but don’t push your loved ones away. They cannot possibly understand what we are going through. They just love and worry about us and don’t know how to help. This is hard on everybody.

#7 Don’t let them attach themselves to situations. For example if something bad happens to you or someone you know they’re going to tell you that they are responsible for it they are not.

#8 if you need a break from

voices .Get a pair of earbuds put only one earbud in One ear listen to music at a low volume then watch TV on a higher volume Focus on what’s on TV with the music in the background this makes voices a third-party and hard to understand what they are saying. if possible, use the one earbud at work you can still communicate with people and have the music as your background.

#9 You are not alone, Go to hearing voices network. There you can find weekly zoom meetings with people that hear voices. there is no judgment there. It’s people that don’t believe it’s a mental illness. there’s also a sub on Reddit.

#10 They read You in your dreams, your insecurities, your fears and anything else they can attack. I wake up in the middle of the night and find myself having a conversation with them. I call it second shift. it’s always the same voice on second shift. The one I call gazelle he’s with me all day long too It’s like he never sleeps. Become secure with who you are and it will carry into your subconscious. you need to rebuild and become secure with who you are . Voices love to bring up your past if there’s things you have done in the past that other people thought were wrong, but it was justified to you don’t change that . if there’s things you have done in the past, and you know, they were wrong chalk it up to life experience and know that next time you’re put in that situation, you will handle it different . If you were abused in the past voices, love to have you relive that pain . you can’t change the past, but you can change your future live for today and everything else will fall in place. It’s all about taking control. I also believe this is where these intrusive thoughts and strong urges come from. I would get strong urges to commit suicide. If you have had thoughts of suicide prior to hearing voices they will latch onto that. A good friend told me that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Stay strong you are in the fight of your life don’t go down by your own hand. I realized they were planting these thought when I started having thoughts like a pedophile. I am 45 years old and have kids of my own. I have always loved kids and had a strong hate for pedophiles. So I realize these are not my thoughts and that I have never thought like this before I heard voices. It does no good to get worked up about it. Just brush it off and these thoughts will start to fade. I notice when I first get up in the morning I’m thinking about my past or what these voices are . This is second shift digging around and planting seeds . don’t jump to any conclusions when you first wake up in the morning. give yourself time to wake up take a shower eat breakfast. Get ready to start your day before you put any real thought into anything.

#11 I used to hear four voices two guys a girl and an old man. The old man was pure evil and claimed to be with the devil. I was walking through the kitchen one day, and I felt a huge vibration go through my body. It was so powerful It dropped me to one knee. I’m not really sure what it was, but ever since that day three years ago, I have never heard the old man’s voice again. I just hear the two guys and a girl. it is possible for a voice to leave.

#12 gang stalking-complete strangers come up to me all the time and say things like you gotta stay calm or glad to see you’re still surviving. Back when I used to give my voices the satisfaction of fighting with them all day I would tell them I don’t give a fuck who you are and that I would fight all of them with no shoes on. A couple weeks later I’m at work sorting out stone for the next wall we were gonna do. I see a man walking down the road with his shoes in his hand yelling where the fuck are you at? And really didn’t know who he was looking for. That’s when I realized this guy hears voices too and they want us to bump heads. Things like this would happen time and time again so if something like this happens to you. Stay calm. It’s probably somebody who hears voices too. I noticed when strangers say things to me they appear to be nervous about saying them. I believe this is what people refer to as gang stocking. just be friendly and go on your way.

#13 if you’re seeing things that are right in front of you get a laser pointer point it at what you are seeing it will go right through it. That means it’s impossible for it to hurt you. If you see your kid or loved ones turn into a demon don’t panic, it’s just an illusion. When you hear bad things on the news people say “ What were they thinking” It’s because they have no idea what we are going through. Don’t be a statistic. it only takes one situation to ruin your life. There are so many people in prison today because of voices and things they were seeing. If you own a gun, get them out of the house or lock them up and give someone else the key. The bullet is just gonna go through whatever you are seeing and could hit someone you love. I also want to stress that they don’t always look like demons. Lots of nights I would be laying in bed and I could see two men standing in the hallway. One was even on a cell phone with it lit up. Be careful with this. It looks so real. I would get up and check the whole house. There would never be anybody there. It’s just an illusion. this is not a fight that can be won physically. It’s all mentally it has to come from within.

#14 seeing things in windows and reflections-I’ve seen a lot of things in windows, like people, demons and even aliens. When this happens, they make themselves sound like they’re right outside or in the next room totally different from how I hear them in my head all day long. It even sounds like they’re tapping on the window or banging on the wall. I’ve been through a lot with this sometimes it would even sound like my wife or daughter was screaming for help in the other room. I would run in there and they would always be fine. After this happened so many times you realize that it’s just a mindfuck and an illusion like everything else. also when I look in the mirror, my face changes sometimes.they’re gonna try to convince you that you’re something you’re not it’s all an illusion with a mental illness tag attached to it.like I said before a deck of cards stacked just right. A lot of things cast reflections so if it gets to be too much and you need a break just read a book or do a crossword puzzle Nothing reflects off the pages. at first, you’re gonna wanna not take your eyes off it don’t worry nothing is gonna happen. It’s just a reflection. You will find this out in time..

#15 fading to black-I see things every day, but sometimes it gets real intense and it can last for days. This usually only happens once or twice a year. I faded to black for three days over Easter weekend and for the first time, I heard new voices and they were looking for a fight. They were claiming to be sons of the devil .I could hear what sounded like recordings of people talking about me like things that I have done Most of them were not true. When I sat on the toilet in the bathroom it looked like it was infested with rats. I could see them crawling on the sink and all over the floor. I could see people in blue cloaks running around outside the house way too fast to be human. I went to smoke a cigarette in the garage and I saw a man dressed in black. His face was white like chalk with a black swirl on it. And he had the coldest eyes I have ever seen. They were pitch black. He would just stand there and sometimes smile at me. On the third night, I heard these loud bells coming from the backyard. So I went to see what it was. There was a tall man in a robe with antlers holding a book. I told him I would have nothing to do with any evil, and he walked away. I could fill a book with experiences like I’m talking about. Recently I was laying on the couch and I heard voices say are you ready for Easter weekend again? Then I started to hear new voices and they were looking for a fight. I’ve been down this road so many times before so this time I told myself I wasn’t gonna let these voices get me worked up. So I closed my eyes and thought about things that make me happy. Like being in the yard with my kids on a summer day and remembering the first time I held them in my arms when they were born. I had my eyes closed and I begin to see a Smoky haze of different colors. I have seen Haze like this before, but it’s usually just blue. This time it was green, yellow, and purple. And then it started to show me ancient Egypt, and how they lived and things to do with the universe. I would see different entities, smiling, and waving at me and a feeling of peace and love. it was an amazing experience. I realize now when this energy comes strong it adapts to what you put out. It’s these voices job to get you worked up with fear and hate so this energy can attach in a negative way. Now that I know this, I will no longer fade to black only light. I believe that this energy that is with us now uses our eyes like projectors that’s why it works good on windows and can adapt to anything with a base and build on it. It’s also why you can’t grab it and you go through it like a hologram. and it’s also why no one else can see it.

#16 today I am living my best life. I work a full-time job love spending time with friends and family and people can’t tell that I hear voices unless I tell them it’s all about finding balance. hearing voices can happen to anybody .I personally didn’t- start hearing voices until after my 40th birthday. It is so hard to find real help for this the only way you can truly understand it is if you have gone through it. If you know somebody who could use this, please pass it on. and always remember never do anything you wouldn’t have done before you started hearing voices.