Anyone else here do Zero Carbs? What's your favorite foods?

The image below is something I still eat 1 to 4 days a week but before (when I was eating healthier in my eyes) it was what I had every morning.

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Gim, beef sausage, eggs, cheese, kimchi, and hot sauce. All I was able to buy at the local grocery store. I've been eating this zero carb breakfast (and rather financially responsibly) and easily sourcing the ingredients in Arizona, California, Oregon, and Texas. I assume the rest of the country these ingredients can be found rather easily too. I cook everything in a single cast iron skillet (EASY WIN EASY LIFE) and then put the kimchi and the gim on the plate afterward. Talk about "yum!"

Please ignore this documentation of slovenliness... I generally eat at a kitchen table... I was in a hurry today and snapped this at my desktop along side a naughty as fuck AZ Iced Tea.

Thoughts?

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Devil In Me - On The Grind

Love this album, found it spoke of a similar spiritual prism I hold and of the virtues that led me to wellness and out of the jaws of death countless times. With tracks titled "will," and "never give in" I hope you will see there are many who've walked a similar path to you and have found the strength within themselves to overcome this affliction.

Do any of the above links resonate with you?

I've collected MANY more hardcore albums that also speak of a spiritual torment, holding the lyrics "voices in my head" and similar. Complied into a playlist, all these are green and purple on their album covers just to give you an idea of how much art there is out there devoted to this burden. As of today it's at 1,171 songs.

All the best!

Hi friends, here is the newest Parawareness video, which tells the basics of my Targeted Individual story, the ontological shock which comes with this experience, and how - in the beginning - we think our thoughts are the "words we say in our heads" but this phenomenon actually deals with our instinctive thoughts, the thought behind the thought, or our Sponsoring Thoughts.

I hope you'll go support the video on YouTube, Rumble, or Spotify. Or, if you believe in what we're doing, support it on all 3 platforms!

Pinched is a beautifully strange 11-minute animation about a man who hears voices and has become remarkably functional while stricken by a profoundly dysfunctional relationship with them. Jack moves through an underground city as a gifted pickpocket, accompanied by entities that cajole, insult, command, and seemingly possess considerably more confidence about the direction of his life than he does. I can certainly relate to much of this and am sure many here can too.

Then something unexpected interrupts the arrangement: human connection.

A stolen object reconnects Jack with a woman from his past, and suddenly the unquestioned authority of his voices isn't so unquestioned anymore. The story becomes less about whether the voices are "real" and more about who gets to decide what Jack does next.

That distinction is probably the reason I'd recommend this to voice-hearers. The film gives the experience form without spending eleven minutes litigating its ontology. Jack's world is simply presented as Jack experiences it.

I do have one substantial HVN-ish criticism of it: the official synopsis ultimately frames love as defeating the voices and even as a "cure" for Jack's sickness. That's a fairly conventional psychiatric/redemption ending grafted onto a film that, for most of its runtime, is doing something much more interesting.

I'd rather read the ending as agency instead of cure.

Jack doesn't triumph because someone proves his voices aren't real. He discovers that their instructions aren't sovereign. There are other relationships, other motivations, and other possible ways of being in the world.

For an 11-minute cartoon, that's an unusually rich depiction of voice-hearing.

And visually it's fantastic, angular, grimy, exaggerated, vaguely noir, with Jack's internal experience bleeding naturally into the physical environment. It feels much closer to somebody attempting to show you what an experience feels like from inside it than making a clinical illustration of schizophrenia.

I suspect given the tone and candor of this short film that it was directed/made by people who've walked a very similar path to all of us here. In many ways this film proves and I hope shows you how surmountable this hellish affliction is.

Thank you for believing in yourself, love to see your thoughts!

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Wanted to share this album I just came across State Power - Spoils of Empire

If you can't make out the lyrics (that to me so CLEARLY speak to the essential spiritual prism that leads to wellness/destiny) to the pre-released tracks on this album you can take note of the track titles below:

Spoils of Empire

The Sin of Empathy

Brain Bug

Schizoscene

I see in these artist's work a statement on the modern human condition and the spiritual bout all are gripped by here in the west. That we are handed the opulent keys to a wondrous life, we can seek, learn, and share like no other humans before us. Yet at this unparalleled empowerment our choices lead to consequences. That life here in modern times is like a donkey island of the mind and if we lunge fourth with little desire to strike back at the forces of mediocrity and the echelons beneath (evil) we are sure to be cast aside in the grand scheme of things.

I love the call to meaning in these few released tracks, the call to dispense with self limiting empathy. My voices and I say "the greatest prejudice is a willed naivety." Additionally I have posted here a few times in the past about what is essential for a healthy community in terms of Game Theory, and the undoing "sin" of blindly helping any and all else. I really love the hyperlinked Vertasium video for sharing the bare minimum 4 rules of engagement in any social scenario that determine the success or failure of each individual and the broader collective. It's all a rather simple game (for you and what I believe to be spirits) if you can sit through that 20 minute video. The relevance to you and your plight should be self evident in State Power's tracks "brain bug" and "schizoscene."

Interested to hear if anyone here cares to listen and offer their own take on this body of work. I see much love for the same spiritual prisms I too hold.

All the best!

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I grew up in the Arizona Hardcore scene. At some point in middle school I went to my first show, and from then and well into my mid 20's I would be at some DIY music event (usually a rented storage unit in Phoenix or Tempe) most weekend nights. Later in my mid 30's I suffered a skull fracture that brought about a host of bizarre mental phenomena. I would experience intelligent personalities that I could see, hear, and feel, and who could tell me things about the world I did not otherwise know, stuff I could look up on google or wikipedia. Mind blowing stuff. These things showed me a world of magic, and led me to see most all the music I had been listening to my entire life had (unbeknownst to me) been full of little hints and direct language to the very phenomenon that I was now experiencing. If you go to the metal archives website and type in "voices in my head" or similar direct language into their lyrics search bar you'll find thousands, upwards of 10's of thousands of songs that contain your single searchs. Here's a Spotify playlist that is just green and purple album covers that all contain these and similar lyrics and are conceptually devoted to this exact narrative. I barely tried when putting this together, the stuff is everywhere, it's at over 1K songs that fit this very niche criteria and from the niche hardcore genre.

I offer the above exposition to give context. Provided what I survived in 2017 (head injury/abuse) I later became a Hearing Voices Network facilitator. It's a scattered network largely of psychiatry survivors who function through non-for-profits and work to make community for the similarly mentally afflicted. We're trying to save lives, prevent self harm, ease the burden, and end the torture for other people going through the same thing we were once almost ended by. Today I function as an Engineer and have pivoted most of my efforts to networking between the separate non-for-profits and maintaining a subreddit devoted to this cause.

I try and share this world of art that speaks directly to what many are going through. Many times even offering things like "WOW, what you just said... Here's a song with the exact lyrics of what you just said!" to people in network. The history of this is all over that subreddit I help moderate. I feel like this is INSANE, like there is living proof of the supernatural that hangs upon our very breath; yet I share this and I'm almost universally met with blank stares and silence... Wouldn't it blow your mind to know the majority of your favorite bands were all talking about something that you now have access to? And that the broader public can't ever seem to comprehend, no matter how repetitive and pervasive it was, no matter how often the exact same words were written and put to music? I'm reminded of that scene in "They Live," what a fucking bizarre world. It's like the beginning of every childhood adventure movie I've ever seen, yet not another soul I can share this with seems to "get it."

Just now, maybe 30 minutes ago from writing this post, I found this thread on the HVN subreddit. It's someone looking to see if anyone else experiences the same "seemingly sentient hallucinations" and involuntary muscle movements in their mouth/throat that they do. I'll quote them and my comment below:

"Do you experience tongue/larynx movement when the voices speak?

One of the first thing I noticed when I hear the voices is involuntary movements around my tongue and the back of my throat. It's similar to the normal subvocalization motions.

Subvocalization is the process of inaudibly articulating speech with your speech organs. It is an inherent part of reading. Think of it as the inner voice you might hear while reading.

Subvocalization involves much more than just thinking words as you read them. It involves physical body parts, including eyes, lips, throat, tongue, vocal cords, jaws, and larynx! 

from This Blog also Wikipedia has a section on it.

Do you also experience this involuntary movement?"

I write this below in their comments:

"I've had this too, I've even written to other posts about this in their comments in just the last week or two. Obviously I've touched upon this topic with others into the more distant past. When I first came across your (this) post I thought you were re-posting the same topic, there's been a rash of users who post the same questions every day and don't seem to respond to any of the people who write to them... "HVN'ers" can be a frustrating group to simply try and maintain relations with.

Sorry to point accusation in your direction... Anyhow, there's a band called the Twitching Tongues that are clearly named after this very experience. This isn't a small act by any means, if you follow metal/punk/hardcore and look to your local town/city's shows or follow groups on Spotify you'd certainly come across this group. They hail from a subculture I can't seem to get a single "HVN'er" to even acknowledge, what I'm calling "experiencing hardcore." It's an ENTIRE GENRE OF MUSIC that speaks to this very phenomenon. I've been sharing earth shattering facts just like this about this world of experience and have generally been banned/censored from the broader mental health space. At best it seems the very subreddit I moderate can both ignore me and the anchoring facts of the world that would otherwise lead people to wellness. I've posted the playlists I have from already niche genres that push over half a week's worth of play time all with lyrics and context that speak directly to this affliction and how to overcome it. I can't get people to say anything about it or at least upvote the evidence that indeed you are real, your experience is real, and there's a real world out there that reports what you do too. Like a collective coverup by a gathering of deliberate and defaultly special needs covert operatives.

It's like you're all possessed or something...

To test we are cast, a self blinding mass ⸸

EDIT: Before the cross of Saint Peter the Apostle (the dagger mark "⸸") bothers you or anyone else here, I would urge you to wikipedia the subject. It's a symbol strewn throughout western media and is generally (EVEN IF NOT STATED AS SUCH) associated as a "satanic" symbol. It is not. Just read the lyrics if you can't hear what they are saying, it's all about this mental burden, living in a world where you are privately tortured. Just as Saint Peter the Apostle was crucified by the state (the Romans) and crucified upside down to degrade him in his death, we too are made effective criminals in the eyes of the state and are forced to live a spiritually/mentally afflicted existence. Too many people that I've given a strong sell on these subcultures to have reeled at these symbols while having no understanding of their origins or the more direct meaning of the art surrounding them. There's no discussion of praising evil (doing harm for the sake of harm) or of giving up on what is known to be good. It's an acknowledgment that we live in an orchestrated world and that evil is a real thing and prevails too easily among willingly dim individuals.

All the best, to you, I'm sorry for your current torment. I ignored it as best I could and it eventually went away/faded out (I assume these evil beings burn themselves out and into nothing doing dumb shit like this). You're welcome to look at my profile if you're interested in the methods that relieved the pain/stress the fastest."

Would it interest you to know the paralleling evidence to so many acts is out there? Would you be interested to know how many successful artists in this world are living in a nigh private hell, seeing things, and feeling things no-one else can? Knowing that if they were to flat out tell the wrong doctor about this they would be locked up, perhaps for the rest of their life? What an odd world for them, to go on tour, stand on stage, have their work on the radio, YouTube, Spotify and have so few people understand the literal meaning to their lyrics or the genuine sentiment to the visuals on their album covers. Is this a new perspective 4 any of you?

Over this past year (2026) I have had a host of mental faculties find me again. I consider myself well. Certainly I would consider myself better off than any functioning alcoholic, avid Cannabis user, or even the average American. Back in 2019 and into 2021 I would have extreme pains, delirium, an inability to sleep that amounted to less than 8 hours per week, I would pass out standing up, I would go blind, I would go numb. I lost my ability to read, write, count to 10, even talk due to the absurdly loud and hurtful intrusive thoughts I assume to be a form of spiritual possession/"bicameral state." All this amidst voices that seemed to accurately predict my life's future events (what people would say, do, wear, even what state I would be living in next, etc...). For anyone interested in notions of seeing the future I would suggest the colossal body of evidence seen in the r/remoteviewing community, or even in contemporary pieces of art. There is a movie called "i pet goat ii" that predicts many global events prior to their occurrence including the burning down and accurate portrayal of the Notre-Dame Cathedral's collapse. All this presented on an international stage and acclaimed (they won awards) 7 years prior to the events of the fire, other events perhaps even prognosticated further into the future.

I offer the above to give context. Today I function and have for years now as an Engineer working in the semiconductor industry. I'm doing great and have written plenty as to how I got here. Largely though stoicism, a self improvement lifestyle, 24 hour fasting on a carnivore diet, and the practice of ad-hoc mediumship/mysticism. There are many other cultural heroes who've walked these paths and who reiterate similar strategies that led them to their successes and wellness. The Canadian behavioral psychologist/professor/author J Peterson is my "go to" as his texts speak directly to the nature of belief, magic, and how to overcome this burden from his academically vetted background. I see the same spiritual prism from my own mind in the works of so many artists from around the world. I would suggest to anyone reading this that there is a broad and expansive subculture of people who experience this phenomena functioning quite well even if in private/secret. It is unclear to me how many of these artists who make confessional works have any in their life/orbit who know of this phenomenon. Evidence of them is glaring through the sub-cultural symbolism seen in most all music cultures. The lyrics to so many songs contain the direct language "voices/spirit in my head" or similar. I've written about this exact situation for years now and have met unreasonable censorship most everywhere I post it online. Here are a few playlists just to give you an idea of how easy it is to find this music. The following links contain Sotify playlists and in total these playlists approach a week's worth of songs that all have such lyrics/undeniable themes. AND these albums are just the ones I find that are green and purple, again just to underscore how much of this stuff is out there. These are just the albums that are green and purple that I come across, these are a very narrow selection of what can easily be found. Bizarre that in recent past posting these works along side an analysis of the lyrical content reliably has me met with a ban most everywhere. Leadership points to "encouraging delusions," "affiliate links" (like anyone's getting paid to share a link to a song...) just about any excuse you'd expect of a special needs bigot. The words I share simply mean what they do... None of it is against "site rules."

Green & Purple ⸸ Experiencing New Wave

Green & Purple ⸸ Experiencing Hardcore

Green & Purple ⸸ Experiencing Psyche Rock

My last word on the topic of censorship and online "mental health" communities is that these spaces are run by absolute weirdos. Self appointed maintainers of a propagandized world view who falsely hide behind notions of "site rules" or "relationship with site admins." One of the largest of these mental health spaces is run by someone who openly identifies as a former "schitzo wrangler" as they previously worked as an orderly in a prior career path. This all looks to be the most antithetical "wellness peer space" imaginable. How disgusting that this person not only needlessly makes up rules but also selectively enforces them upon the community they survey. It a phrase all this is pro bono systematic abuse. None of what I write or many others who no longer have accounts goes/went against site rules. Where as actively encouraging the prescription/seeking/directing to life altering medications and all but (and often directly) diagnosing others seems to be the makings of the largest class action lawsuit and manner of lay-malpractice happening in our society. A completely needless group of "boot-lickers" with weaponized paternal instincts, parading around like some public servants. These people are gross and they maintain an extremely narrow view of the psychiatric/eugenic industry. They actively stamp out paralleling communities and seek to get tangential community leaders banned, it's hideous. The conversation in these spaces is decades behind what would likely be found in any real practitioners office. I can only speculate as to the tens of thousands of reddit users effectively led into the clutches of this archaic societal apparatus who otherwise would have found wellness without these fools.

To circle back to why I made this post. I find many of these artists speak to a cutting truth that I too hold dear. They speak to the importance of love and belief and reject the ideological trappings many lesser minds would impose upon you or I. As I discover new artists and find new validations in their paralleling sentiment I also find former stats of mind continue to return. Clarities/abilities of my early adulthood. Additionally I find the states of mind and sensations of illnesses from my childhood are perfectly rehashed. Like the state of mind I held deep within fever dreams of adolescence found me again to assure me they were still holding back a torrent of evil sensations, and that the "adventure of life was real." I remain astonished by the familiarity and memory of my childhood sensations. Some of my voices speak of harassing each other. I reject much of what IFS teaches and see it all to be a supporting argument for a debilitating emotional dependency. I suspect these encouraging beings (the ones I encounter and read in other's accounts) are steely-eyed and need little to no reassurance from me. That the "self" coddling promoted by the IFS community and others is all some bizarre game of self paternalism to ultimately deny/erode/harm the end human practitioner. All the same I see these former and astoundingly helpful spirits of my childhood returning and continually pursued by former ill states in recent weeks.

I believe we are all connected in profound ways. This is a belife supported by the growing trend among academic philosophers surrounding the phrase "panpsychism" and actually dates back to ancient Greece. I see a future (provided we are not all oppressed to a staggering degree by contemporary oligarchs or technocratic disruptive technology) where it will be impossible not to see the connections between us, and hold fast to the evidence of the supernatural interwoven into all our lives. A new age of human understanding, a world for a new mind ushered in by technology and connectivity.

I am numbed by the realization that the Hearing Voices Movent and paralleling Hearing Voices Network largely caters to a disabled and medicated population. Again, I say all this as someone who could not talk, read, write, nor count to 10 at my lows. The evidence that psychiatry is a development of eugenics theory is a matter of easily found (wikipedia, youtube, podcasts by psychiatrists, etc) modern history. The evidence that ~5% of people who take medications for psychosis ever return to a state of functionality is the most informed assessment by over 7 million subjects, over 80 years of observation, and decades of follow up per participant. These same studies (that do account for severity and are linked all over the HVN subreddit) also show that half of the population that experiences an extreme break from reality warranting diagnosis simply return to normal on their own and away from psychiatry. Furthermore, showing that peer led community leads more than 80% to wellness in less than 5 years (provided they are not on medications) is very promising. Yet it is depressing there is little to no contingent of this strategy within the HVN from my 6 or so years of involvement. In my view the colossal psychiatric apparatus of the west simply funnels forgone individuals into this space at an overwhelming rate, displacing any people who believe in or practice magic. Look to JBP's work on this subject, his texts effectively define magic as a form of studying the mind and meaning, it cascades into mystic practice quite easily. The HVN in 2026 remains a tower of babble and predominantly a display of cognitive dysfunction even among leadership. That said, HVN'ers are far nicer to hang out with than orderlies or abusive family members ;)

People worthy of diagnosis only occupy 2 to 3% of the global population, this compares to the between 25 and 50% of the global population who hear voices Et. al... It saddens me many days to know the formalized gathering space of the HVN is a collection of this human experience's (or at least the expression of the experience's) ghetto... There's not much conversion beyond "yes it does suck to be disabled, how's your new medication regime treating you?" I do not suspect it always was this way nor will it stay this way. I also suspect it is imperative to see the parasitic apparatus of western psychiatry to be humanity's greatest undermining tradition; additionally the same imperative to our individual survival to identify it as such. Shame on the alarmists, the isolators, the censors, the paternalistic anonymous ones who accuse expressions of these hard fought and respected truths to be villainous before simply casing the messenger out and carrying on to a self blinding mass.

*que the next "Do meds help with voices?" or "Why won't the side effects go away? Will I ever be able to have an orgasm again?" thread*

I hope these words help to validate some of you. I would be eager to hear if any of this connects with you out there. I've written here most days for the past 4 years or so. I am taken aback at the very meaningful connections I have made even if I am stunned by the numbers surrounding all this. Generally if 2000 people read a post, less than 5 people will ever vote or leave a comment on it here in "alternative mental health/spiritual" spaces. I'm disturbed to see the broad swaths of grey area trolls in paranoia/delusional thinking focused spaces like targeted energy weapons, V2K, and notions of occult gang stalking/gradual indoctrination spaces. All these spaces seem run by non experiencers who've found narratives to pedal as to anonymously harass/harm vulnerable people through via internet. I find it telling that no cross examination is allowed in these ideologically inept and dim world view echo chambers. I have my suspicions for many that boast user numbers in the multiples of hundreds of thousands... a handful of NEETs could easily AstroTurf such communities with a few hundred dollars to act out some perverse and abusive thrills.

Observations of the darker/lamer side of humanity aside I do hope this finds you well. I believe magic to be real, inescapable, even if largely ignored by western society and more so toward the bottom. I'd love to hear what you think of the music. I see this world as so evidently full of accessible magic yet the broader population can't seem to acknowledge it. This message obviously is also carried by brash and exasperated members of the public who make a forward carrying conversation impossible to maintain.

All the best to all of you!

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Just now I had a quick back and fourth with someone recently overcome by a mental affliction. I'm an HVN facilitator. In the HVN there's no mandatory reporting, there's no telling others what to believe or what to do, and we don't pathologize others even if people are welcome to identify through illness frameworks for themselves.

I created an HVN subreddit shortly after getting certified as an HVN facilitator. I used to host virtual meetings but took a pause to focus on life and personal wellness. I can report here that I once had the lows of an inability to read, write, count to 10, and many other demonstrations of disability. Through working with the HVN, stoic/spiritual practice I regained my life and mind. All this took a rejection of psychiatry. Lots written about this on my profile for anyone interested.

In the conversation I have with this individual, it's clear they're not fully functional. There's lots of inability to fully articulate themselves seen. I shared with them my views on recovery trajectories and about how I got well. They oddly asked again about medical models. I quote/cite The Finnish Open Dialogue Method, this 2023 study on medication efficacy, and this 2024 study on efficacy all the time. Direct links to the studies are in the articles. It's slathered all over the HVN subreddit.

These days I'm beside myself at the droves of people who can't be budged from their convictions about illness and the need for medications found online. If you can't read the conversation in the shared image, I'll quote my closing statement below.

"I guess you'd have to read my above comment and the data on medications. Globally only 5% of people that go on/stay on medications are able to go back to work and live without disability pay. The other study (more inclusive) strongly hint to a placebo's false positive report, that medications drastically harm the body and the few people that report an improvement only do so for the first few months of administration.

You'll have to take a look for yourself, we're not allowed to tell anyone what to do or what to believe here. The facts and results surrounding those studies are what they are.

In a former life I would imagine this to be earth shattering, however these days I believe the psychiatric system has always and foremostly served as an extension of western prison systems. It was previously simply called "eugenics."

If you post any of these EXTREMELY vetted data on illness framework subreddits you'll be banned. Their agenda is obvious in my eyes. r/redactedWITCHhunt is actually led by a former orderly who identifies as a "schizo wrangler" it's a disgusting state of affairs and looks like a legal liability for site owners in my eyes.

To me; way too much of this site is blatantly astroturfed by ill people aiming to get "even" with anonymous strangers.

EDIT: I'm removing the name of the subreddit to avoid accusations of starting a "witch hunt." Strange world..."

Truly, I find this all to be a perverse state of affairs. Most all contemporary music seems to hold the direct language of hearing voices or similar red flags found in the DSM-5. 1/4 to 1/2 people globally report altered states of consciousness and hearing voices to varying degrees. There are so many damning facts yet these large and largely by seniority online communities/schemes persist. a "flat-earther world" scenario...

I'd love to see what anyone here had to say on all this, looks like stuff right out of a novel or Hollywood movie; 2 dimensional bad guys and all to me.

Below is an excerpt (the majority) of a letter I'm sending to an inmate incarcerated in the state of Texas. His family posted last month to the community here asking if anyone would like to send correspondence to them.

"Hello,

In 2019 my voices began, they stole much from me. I lost track of reality, my mind was consumed by intelligent personalities who inflicted tremendous pain and anxiety, I lost weight, from 190lbs to around 140lbs, I slept for less than 8 hours a week as my voices raped me every night starting at sunset, this torment lasted for years and slowly faded out. My hair would fall out and grow back in phases. I lost my job, my home, my family cast me out, and for a time I lost touch with all reality.

Today things are very different for me. I know that over1/4 people alive report this phenomena to some degree. I assume everyone actually does have this experience and it is only a personal fluency or desire to discuss one’s own mind that separates those who say they do from those who don’t. It is so easy to find art about this phenomenon I would suggest it is more challenging to find widely acclaimed art that is not about this experience. I write this to assure you that you are not alone. Your loved one shared briefly about your situation in an online forum… it is a strange collection of people, many are effectively disabled by choice in my eyes, people who seek disability pay and medical labels in attempts to quell this burden. Other have a more supportive (deluding in my eyes) experience and spend their time entertaining spirituality (a cool thing to do) in much less than productive ways. Not making are or working on self improvement but instead spending great efforts simply complaining about the phenomena (yes it is a torture) or attempting to “preach” and twist other’s beliefs. I assume it to be a developmental phase weighing over the entire community. The HVN was not always like this.

I personally believe in magic and see its practice as a real and academically vetted thing. Authors like Jordan B Peterson’s Maps of Meaning talk at length about how the mind and all cultures form… yes how the mind forms… Jordan B Peterson is a tenured professor of Behavioral Psychology and has been all over the news in the last 15 years. His work has been highly politicized (he’s viewed as rather “right) but his work has nothing to do with American politics. I don’t know if you can request books, I’ll list a few you should check out.

1             Jordan B Peterson – Maps of Meaning

1.5        Jordan B Peterson – 12 Rules for Life

2             Joseph Campbell – The Hearo With A Thousand Faces

Julian Jaynes – The Origin of Consciousness in the Breakdown of the Bicameral Mind

Elyn Saks – The Center Cannot Hold

Joanne Greenberg – I Never Promised You A Rose Garden

3             Marcus Aurelius – Meditations

4             Seneca – Letters from a Stoic

Most of #2 is going to be reiterated in #1, both are good and written by very successful people who heard voices. Largely the philosophy that guided these two people to wellness and power is detailed in #3, and #4. #5 (below) may interest you as it is written by a former slave, a stoic philosopher who lived at the time of Jesus Christ, in modern day Turkey

5             Epictetus – Enchiridon (The Handbook)

All three (3,4,5) of these “stoics” believed the mind to be “bicameral” and comprised both of us the human and of spirits that come and go from all of us. That all humans were like vessels that housed these spirits. They believed that through meditation and other spiritual practice a human could have sway over their mental company. If you read any memoirs of great leaders/thinkers you will see most all privately hold these beliefs to some degree.

I don’t want to tell you what to do or what to believe. But I would offer that there is little to do locked up other that sit with one’s own mind. I think it would be the most practical use of one’s own mind/time to meditate and hone the ancient skills of magic. When you close your eyes do you see images/colors? Wikipedia calls this phenomena “hypnogogic imagery” and offers the slang term “the prisoner’s cinema.” I have seen it since my voices began and have regularly seen images of future events, beautiful women who carry a personality and play over my mental faculties no human could ever compare to. The Greeks (ancient) called this “phantasia” and European mystics have always simply called this “second sight”… witchcraft. I believe it is simply what all people are capable of provided they desired to seek out the experience.

I have been told you have a short stay locked up. I would urge you to put your thought to what you can get out of your time there and what you can do once you get out. If you experience this and make art (your people say you do) you are well suited to a real adventure. The matter of your mental experience seems to be the crucial ingredient that leads all successful artists to acclaim. More power to you.

I know form personal experience that being confined can make this mental phenomena an ACTUAL HELL. If you are like me and other I know you are sure to be seasoned by this torture and made stronger by bouts you have no say in avoiding. I can’t tell you how sorry I am you’re going through what you’re surviving today. Please believe in yourself, know you are challenged by the voices and by the dim minds of this world because you are worthy, perhaps far more worthy that the voices will allow you to see for yourself.

I suspect you are here for a great purpose. I would urge you to get in touch with me once free. Your people will have my online info. I welcome you to see the world of the HVN, join us in becoming a facilitator (it’s a great thing to put on a resume and does pay some) it’s a great way to vanquish the hell in one’s own mind and in the minds of others. In the HVN we don’t tell others what to believe or what to do. If you mail Carolin Mazel-Carlton of the Wildflower Alliance I am sure she would send back to you.

Carolin Mazel-Carlton

Wildflower Alliance

PO BOX 893

Holyoke, MA 01041

I look forward to corresponding more and regularly with you. Please know you are not alone and your experience is real."

I write my name here at the conclusion of the letter. If you are interested in making a pen pal or would like to send information to this individual; their family can be reached at u/Thin_Consequence2276.

All the best!