u/No-Finance7526

On an unrelated note, my parents won't be home until overmorrow morning, so I wanna try stuff I can't do normally. Any ideas?

Now I feel greedy asking for it :(

Anyways, I'm working on the type-checking again (as if anyone knew or cared, lol). I got variable existence checks working, but I need to do the "type" part (the "check" one too, but I'm too lazy for that), and it's still intimidating.

Exactly as the caption suggests. Also, I'm trying to add type-checking to my language, but it's so intimidating, even though I've done it a million times; know it's easy; and there (for all intents and purposes) aren't even any types, so it's just definedness checks.

Hello again (as if anyone knew me and I didn't post here for the thousandth time, lol)

For context, I was doing voice training. However, ever since I came out to my parents, I got too depressed to continue. Also, I managed to smuggle (?) ring fit adventure equipment, so I'm planning on doing that too.

I have so many projects that could be worked on (feel free to ask btw). Or I could just video games. But no, I just scroll Reddit and watch YouTube all day. Unfortunately, I'm running out of decent YouTube videos and the summer break just started. And after yesterday's morning, I don't think I can be left bored.

*and probably addicted to Reddit, but whatever.

I did many things that should make me happy. I went to the Prague protest, which made me almost cry three times, and the super-duper-transphobic law got rejected right afterwards, which, of course, made me cry.

However, I wake the next day feeling the exact same as usual. I tried to cheer myself up with it, but nothing happens, so I end up feeling worse. I know for sure it made me happy in the moment, why can't it at least make me not want to kill myself the next day?? If I have to live through a major event every two minutes, what even is the fuckin point?

This morning, when I was getting my daily 2 hours of self-hatred, my mom entered my room and began the dumbest conversation ever. "Sorry to wake you up, but we promised to visit grandparents today. Do you wanna go?"

"No. Couldn't have you told me earlier?"

"So do you wanna go?"

"No."

How fuckin incompetent do you have to be???

Firstly, I've been trying to get E for three days. (Yes, I know this isn't much, but I'm still fuckin pissed off about it.) The first time it was sold out, and when I found out they just restocked, I was already planning to sleep. The second time, I caught it, but the website was bugging out so after like 10 minutes of spamming refresh and reentering my shipping details, I managed to check out. But the fuckin website I used to buy bitcoin didn't send the phone verification and the other one required me to have a fuckin wallet. Today I set up my wallet BUT THE FUCKIN WEBSITE IS 18+.

Secondly, like three weeks ago my teacher recommended me an event, so I wanted to talk about it with my parents. But I wanted to tell my parents how fuckin stupid they are, except I keep autopilotting to say stuff like "I'm good." I've been doing that for five fuckin weeks, so I got completely demotivated to tell them anything and there are only two tickets remaining so I have to do it right fuckin now.

To clarify, it's not that I'm scared of my parents; I'm just really anxious about being heard for any reason by anyone unless I'm talking to them.