had sex with a guy and ghosted me after
Problem/Goal: i fucked with a guy and he ghosted me right after, i feel so fucked up and disgusting rn
Context: hi, so i met this guy same school kami and nung una inaya nya lang ako makipagkita, magusap daw kami ganon may dala syang car. mind u that was so early in the morning and parehas kaming gumimik so puyat pa ako. i felt bad na he’s alr waiting down sa condo ko so i decided to go, but sabi ko usap lang ah. sabi nya he wanted to sleep with cuddles, pumayag naman ako and hindi lang cuddles nangyari. after we fucked umalis agad kami and hinatid nya na rin ako pauwi, after that he’s replying so bagal na, syempre nagkakutob na ako hahaha. he replied to me na naoff daw sya sa armpit hairs ko, i mean its normal naman to have those and for god’s sake i told him i wasnt prepared non kasi busy din ako with school and finals week ko so i couldn’t shaved. it js really fucking with my mental health and i feel so disgusted with myself because of what happened. im legit falling into depression and my thoughts are eating me up. ik it was still my fault for like kinda trusting him, it js really hurts na this happened and finals ko pa so idk how to function hahaha. nasa isip ko naman na kayang kaya magawan ng paraan ‘yung bagay na na turn off sya. am i that sensitive? or super gago lang nya? cuz tbh na turn off din ako sa hininga nya and sa acm n liit ng tite nya pero ‘di ko naman sinabi and i didnt have the thoughts to ghost him kasi its such a cruel thing to do. i honestly dont know what to do anymore, all i can think abt is anong problema sakin and how disgusting i am
Previous Attempts: i tried texting him again to js let out my thoughts kasi its really fucking up my mind hahaha
edit: guys ik im at fault, and alam kong wala kaming label ok! it was my fault for trusting him and giving him the benefit of the doubt na hindi nya ako gagaguhin. im also not playing the “victim” here, i acknowledge my mistakes and my decisions. i js wanted to drop my feelings and thoughts here.