u/No-Guest-5023

After a few prolonged periods of heavy restricting I made a commitment to my therapist that I would eat >!500 cal a day!<. I did so for the first few days and was on track today and something broke in me and I ate a lot more. >!Ended up purging 3 times throughout the day!<. Feel so hopeless. I feel like I let my therapist down, because we’ve been working on not purging. And I’ve let myself down because committing to recovery is so hard. I’m >!Suicidal and self harm as well!< so today has just been a shit show. Hopefully I can get back on track tomorrow.