Getting abused verbally, mentally and psychologically in the main subreddit 24/7. What should I do?
A very long and brutally honest trauma dumping incoming.
For starters, I am autistic with Adhd and with a very strong sense of justice and a shitty family history and that made me a target in the main subreddit. I got abuse for basically everything and under nearly every post I commented below. I barely had any good time in the main Berserk subreddit, I was mocked for my writing, despite there was nothing wrong with it, getting mocked and blamed for my struggles in my home country (I deserve it for daring to defend Guts). Getting abused for trying to defend Guts against many so called "fans" who blamed him for things beyond his control (accidentaly killing Adonis, assaulting Casca while the Beast possessed his body and his righteous Roaring Rampage of Revenge against the God Hand, saying the generic victim blaming line: Just because this and that happened to him, that is not an excuse, nor a defense, demonstrating zero empathy, zero emotional inteligence, zero understanding about how a traumatized brain works and endless malice that makes the God Hand good and affable by comparison). Yes, it is an excuse and a proper defense and Guts cannot be put in boxes of human morality and man made laws are not applying to him because he rejects them and has his sword, his armor, his fists and his supernatural strengh to back him up against victim blamers who attempt to put him in boxes and put labels on him. Getting abused for saying that Godo was a mean, stupid old man who barely comprehended Guts's trauma and his "calling out" was more like a victim blaming punching down. Getting abused for wanting a good ending for Guts that he deserves and needs. Getting abused for daring to say that he suffered more than Casca in the Eclipse (getting his arm severed and his eye gouged out is objectively worse, sorry not sorry), getting abused for saying that he should beat Griffith up and that he can do it. Getting abused for saying that Guts was right about leaving the Band behind to follow his own path, getting abused for daring to say that Griffith was a vicious narcissistic bitch since day one, way before the infamous Eclipse. Getting abused for saying that Guts is not illiterate and he would be a better leader than Griffith objectively. Getting abused for describing what Corkus really was: A vicious bully with zero redeeming qualities who got what he deserved: Death at the Eclipse.
What should I do? I blocked that subreddit, but the trauma still haunts me.