How to relax during intimacy?
20F
From ages 10-13 I was a victim of sexual abuse from a family member. It made me extemely uncomfortable with my body and lead to me being a late bloomer with a lot normal experimenting.
I have an amazing boyfriend of 5 years, but every time we're intimate its extremely uncomfortable. Its not that hes doing anything wrong, or that I don't want what is happening. Hes gentle and understanding, but theres something in me that just makes it impossible to fully relax and be in the experience. My body physically won't let go, but I genuinely want to enjoy these experiences.
Weed was the only way I could get myself to physically relax and enjoy what was happening, but due to personal reasons I have stopped. Has anyone had anything similar or any tips?