u/No-Possibility-3170

I'm using a translator, so please excuse me if I write incomprehensibly. I'm tired of the resistance that prevents me from manifesting the things I really want and need, as well as making a shift. Some fleeting things that I just thought about manifest easily. For example, when I just thought yesterday, "It's raining and the sun is shining, I wish I could see a rainbow," and I did see it! However, I haven't been able to manifest something that is truly important to me. I've tried to reduce the importance, postpone it, and remain indifferent to the manifestation, but it hasn't worked out.I've really tried everything, and it's so exhausting! I know that I don't need to look for evidence in 3D, but how can I do it if my future depends on it and I really want to get it?

(I use a translator, so please excuse me if something is unclear)

I really like the concept of the "higher self," where the true self is a god and we are its characters. I've been tracking my own reality for a long time. However, sometimes unexpected things happen that I didn't expect or even remember. Interestingly, these unexpected events often have little to do with me, such as a distant relative's wedding, an acquaintance's new pet, and so on. I don't like the idea that we wanted this unconsciously, or that our true selves created it for us. In my opinion, it feels far-fetched

A year ago I was lying on my bed, imagining myself in my dr and suddenly I had a thought: "What if I shifted but the script doesn't work?" and I started to be afraid of it. My dr is an elite college where everyone is pretentious, and later I have to become a queen consort. Therefore, I think you understand how important the script is for me, how important it is not to lose face. It's so important to me to be flawless, and I'm also very fixated on my appearance.I generally like my appearance, but I'm in high demand in the food industry.

I know you can just write "I look charming and everyone likes me"... But it seems impossible to me, it creates a lot of resistance.I know that the more I worry about the script, the more likely it is that it won't work, but I can't stop worrying. It seems so difficult to bring out all the little details I've written:(

When I read posts about how the script didn't work for others, I get scared out of my mind. Even though I understand that I was the one making these posts.