u/No-Repeat3740

This guy (~10years older) we have not been officially talking, but had these sweet moments and undeniable chemistry. Just lives near me so we see each other often.

Today he reveals to me he is married but “I would love to be married to you, but I can’t afford it.”

I swallowed my heart..pretended it all okay and I was taken back for is desire to marry me. Or whatever. I didnt want him to see it hurt me. But I’m sure he noticed.

I bawled my eyes out all evening.
Why would he even say that me?? I would have been okay with just the I’m married,… but adding on the other parts?

Tbh im a bit heartbroken over this. I think bc I built this up in my heart and mind for a while now.

Ugh time to move on I guess.

I paid 2k for this program here in SoCal. Idk what I was thinking.

I thought this would be a stepping stone into something else

But I’m sitting here on my break typing this not wanting to go back.

We are at a nursing home and it’s devastating. That’s all I can say.

I wanna go back to my previous major which was something a bit cushy and office work.

I chose a nursing major because I wanted to help people but this isn’t helping people. This is far from it.

Idk what to do.. I have two more weeks. I guess tough it out unless I get a job in my previous major.