u/No-Season-5203

Working on a menswear collection inspired by German amateur football in the late 90s. Saturday afternoon, the village comes alive, asphalt pitch, bratwurst stand, kids eating ice cream, blue first aid box on the sideline, the chalk cart drawing lines on the pitch.

Not trying to put a football jersey on a runway. More interested in the feeling, proud imperfection, things that almost work but don't quite, worn-out surfaces, visible repairs.

What images, films, songs, memories come to mind when you think of this world? Doesn't have to be fashion related, I'm looking for anything that captures the atmosphere.

I’ll try to keep this brief:

It’s only been in the last few months that I’ve realized my mom’s behavior isn’t good for my mental health. This realization brought up a lot of childhood memories, and I’ve noticed that many of my mental health issues (anxiety, low self-esteem, depression) stem from the fact that I was completely emotionally neglected. I used to talk to my mom on the phone and text her every day, but now I’ve distanced myself, and that’s really good for me. Sometimes when I visit her, I have to pull myself together really hard, and that takes a lot of energy. I’m sure you know what I mean.

Now I’m forced to spend a week alone with my mom. And just thinking about it makes me feel sick and breaks out in a cold sweat.

What can I do to make the situation more bearable?

Canceling isn’t an option; explaining why right now would go way beyond the scope of this post.