anyone else hate their client?
i’ve been a dsp for 3 years - for almost two years i’ve been working with a client who has down syndrome and SEVERE dementia. I’ve watched her disappear more and more throughout the years and it kills me. she is a hollow, lifeless shell of a person now. i get so frustrated - but it’s in my personal code of ethics to NEVER let a client see or feel my frustrations.
she makes me so mad - just everything she does. i hate how upset i get and how quickly i can feel my patience decrease. i’ve never felt empathy fatigue but god do i feel it with her. i suspect it’s because im angry im losing her. who she was two years ago was someone with substance, someone i knew i could help and make progress with. all of that is gone now. the only thing i can do is keep her at a baseline for as long as possible. even that is becoming impossible.
i know my anger is selfish and personal. do yall feel similarly to a client? if so, how do you manage those frustrations?