not interested in AA anymore really
I’ve been pretty active in AA for about 4 years. Close with my sponsor, all my friends are in AA. In general recovery has become my life.
I got sober, finally. I got a job that I enjoy, an apartment that I like, I’m a really active member of my family now. I go anywhere and I do whatever I want nowadays.
But I’m just over AA. I find myself not listening to my sponsor during our calls anymore - I just don’t care what she really has to say and I’m not even looking for her input or advice at this point. The truth is NO ONE in AA really has a life that I want enough to truly take their advice that seriously.
I guess I’m just not looking for answers in AA anymore.
For a long time I was genuinely fired up about recovery, AA, the 12 steps. They solved my problem. But nowadays, I don’t even know why I go. What am I searching for there? I don’t know.
I don’t want to pray anymore
I don’t want to go to meetings anymore
I’d rather just live a teetotal life.
Guess I just want to get this out. See if anyone feels similarly, or has left and been ok. I want to stay sober and plan to